I Missed My Husband

My husband was going out of town a lot. I had four children and home and was missing him a lot! He's an industrial painter, but to get money we needed, he had to whatever he could. I thought he was coming home on a certain day, but he called me and told me he would have to stay another week that they are having to do a shutdown. I wanted him home so bad after not seeing him for weeks. I started crying to where blood came from my nose and said not realizing how angry I truly was, that I hope the whole plant blows up! I was awaken by my husband hours later with a kiss on my face, was so excited and relieved he was home but why? I asked. He said the whole plant caught fire, but no one was there THANK GOODNESS! I told him what I felt and what I said. He just looked at me. I felt guilty for a long time. I don't know if this was just a weird thing that happened. I dunno. But I never want anything like that to happen again is all. I have had other things happen as well. I'll leave just this story for now. Just one more story. I was dreaming the house was on fire and awoke to a space heater catching fire at the outlet. It scared all of us, my husband unplugged it real fast and threw it out the front door. I have weird feelings all the time. I don't know exactly what it is or why. I can tell before someone speaks what they are about. I can see good in someone's eyes and deviant in others. At times I can read a person's thoughts without even trying, just feels like an energy wrapped around me or in my mind, I don't say anything most of the time, they think I'm weird if I say anything so I try not to. I just wonder sometimes, if I worked on some things I know I have, could it get better? Just good things of course. Please tell me what you think.