I was haunted from about 14yrs old until 22yrs old. Spirits were mostly kind, they came to me as clear as day, sometimes see-through, sometimes in a fog, sometimes couldn't see them, just felt them. I also saw lots of orbs, I heard them, I felt them, they gave me messages, told me things but not with a voice, more like psychic messages, usually warnings. I learned things I didn't want to know, it became very intense, many strange unexplained events, other people around me also experienced some of these things and saw spirits. I felt intruded, didn't know who to turn to, became very angry, I was a very introvert, quiet, highly religious christian, but eventually I freaked out with the constant daily events of the undead all around me.
I yelled that I didn't want to see them, I didn't care about what they wanted, didn't want to know the future, I pushed god away and refused to look at them or listen, I turned to alcohol. After about two years passed of me ignoring them, they finally all went away. I then stopped drinking and tried to have a normal life, but I feel very lonely and scared I made a mistake, I didn't want to be haunted and don't want to be, just wish I had someone to explain to me why what and if I'm forgiven, if I am still loved, I don't know how to bring God back into my life, I believe in him, but now, in the sense of God being a higher power that exists and is all around us and part of us as much as we are part of it.
I just don't pray anymore, and I'm crying now, because I think I am scared, that's why I am alone, I don't blame myself about how I reacted, try being haunted and alone. I am 32 now, can't get over it still, it still haunts me in memories and fear of mistake. Much of my experiences were loving spirits trying to help, curious spirits just checking things out and only two that were a little scary but not sure if that was their intention.
I would feel better if I could meet someone that legitimately knows about these things and can confirm that I am ok. Can anyone help?