I have never really believed in paranormal stuff because I am so used to seeing people use it just to make money on some hokey pokey casper the ghost buisness. But now that I look back on my life I am starting to question some of my experience with umexplained things and feelings in my life.
When I was younger I remeber always feeling like I was being watched sometimes it was a comforting feeling and sometimes it was very scary for me. At my dads house I was always scared of my room especially my closet. Now I know most seven year olds were scared of the closet as well as under their beds. But this was different.
I felt as though something was going to kill me, I felt nothing but utter terror even in the day time when people were home with me in the clear daylight. But I did not always feel like that sometimes did feel alone even when I was in that room and not like something was right over my shoulder or ready to cut my limbs off. And I remember feeling like that very very clearly.
But my room was so scary to me that I would cry myself to sleep. It wasn't somthing that had always bothered me though. At one point I liked having the hallway lights off and sleeping with the door closed. But then it just gradually started to get scarier and scarier as time passed. So as a I got older the more I needed the lights on, the more I had to have my door open but it still didn't help me.
I would hear sounds and feel like something enjoyed watching me suffer under my covers. I remember feeling that if I dared to pull the cover over my head that whatever it was would cut me up and I wouldn't see it coming. I wasn't able to watch scary movies so I wasn't paranoid and just making it up based off what happened in some scary movie. The noises i.heard were creaking of stairs when I knew for certain my dad was sleeping.
Ever since then I have had the feeling of being watch but it comes and goes. Even now sometimes its a comforting feeling and sometimes even romantic feeling. Then at other times it feels like something is going to get me and hurt me. I have started seeing shadows in a pitch black room that look almost human that go away after I pray. But when I see them amd after they dissapear I feel very tired. And I usually see them after having been very negative that day.
Once I was on the phone with my mom and at the time I felt like I was being watched and it felt very evil. Thats the only word I can use to describe the feeling. I told my mom I felt like I was being watched and it started to be worse I felt like whatever was watching me was getting angry with me. I watched my back after that.
On top of that my whole life I have talked to "myself" I talk aloud and explain myself in great detail. My mom says she has no idea why but ever since I could speak I have done it.
I just need some kind of explanation for what the hell is happening. Now all of a sudden I look at phone right before I get a text message or call because I could have sworn I saw the screen light up. And sometimes I feel very frusterated out of no where to the point of tears and sometimes anger out of the blue and it goes away sometimes as quickly as it started and sometimes it lasts an hour or so.
I don't know what to think of this
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