Terrified

I began experiencing odd things at a very young age. I would be able to guess things very precisely, I would know details about places I had never been to. I can see auras if I "turn it on" in my mind, and I have seen spirits. I have had a few terrifying experiences with seeing and feeling spirits and am very scared of being unable to control my abilities, so I am seeking guidance and help because it has gotten to the point where I am seeing and hearing things that I definitely do NOT want to see or hear!

The first time I ever saw a spirit was when I was between the ages or 6 and 8. I was in my basement with my mom and sister, we were watching a movie. From the corner of my eye I saw something moving from the stairwell, I turned to my right and saw a man from the chest up move from the stairwell across the way and out the wall. I only saw his profile. He was clear almost but with a rainbowish outline to him. It appeared to be energy, almost like what an aura looks like except I could not see an aura on him. The best way I can describe his appearance is that he looked just like Abraham Lincoln on the penny. Slowly more things began to happen. It wasn't until my sophomore year of high school that I had my most terrifying and life changing experience. I was able to read a good friend very well. I could see the details of his room EXTREMELY vividly without ever having been there. One night he wanted me to try and see the rest of his house with my mind. So I closed my eyes and focused. It was almost like a dream, or like something that was really happening. I entered a nearly empty house, all that was there were a few distinct pieces of furniture. My perspective was almost like that of a snakes. As I went through the house I finally came across a bedroom. I walked in and looked around. I was drawn to this room as it was the first across from the stairs leading to the second floor. I decided to turn around and walk out when a black shadow or presence overcame me. I felt terror like I was being held under water and drowned. I felt like this presence was trying very hard to hurt me. I could feel myself being choked in my bed and at this point became aware of my actual surroundings, I was not in a strangers house but rather my own. I was finally able to open my eyes and force my self to snap out of it but to this day the feeling of being strangled in my own bed has me terrified. I told my friend what I saw and felt immediately after it happened and he was not only shocked but completely BROKE down. He was hysterical and is NOT the type of person to get emotional. He told me that the place I described was the first house his family lived in and that he was tormented by what he believed was "his demons". A demon maybe, but not his, he has an unbelievably kind heart and is slightly sensitive himself. However, while living there he felt as though he was losing his mind. Even after sharing my experience with him, he was not the same for some time after. He too became very afraid of the demon finding him because of what I did and attaching itself to him again. After this experience I have hardly used my abilities out of fear. When I use them it seems as though I become more sensitive to negative things that I do NOT want to see. Recently I have started using my abilities to train myself to see auras again. However, with this I am also seeing, hearing, and feeling spirits and things that I am truly terrified of. I am genuinely afraid since I am unable to control my abilities and what I experience. I am quite religious and do not want to open myself up to anything evil but I fear that that is what I attract. I am very scared and concerned for my mental health and well being because of these incidents and things I am seeing and feeling. I am very perceptive to emotions and even feel very uncomfortable and closed off in large groups. Is there any one that can help me control these things? I am desperate at this point! I have had other scary experiences in the home of three children I babysit, before this family moved in the house had burned down and killed the widowed woman who lived there. She was a hoarder and could not escape. Often I hear what sounds like someone going through boxes in the halls or other noises as if someone is in the house. I am fearful of these things and DO feel threatened and scared when I have these experiences. Help? Please? Any suggestions or advice would be EXTREMELY, EXTREMELY appreciated!

Thank you,

Jillian