Demon Spirit Guide

I have noticed this topic on this site and it is part of what made me decide to come here and tell my own story, it has also made me feel better that I am not the only one with this experience. There are a few things I would love to hear the opinions of others about.

I have known my guardian for about 5 years now and he isn't afraid to hide the fact that he is a demon. I know that they can choose the form that most appeals to you, and I do like the demonic look so that may be part of it. He has long; straight black hair, deep red eyes, looks relatively human besides he sometimes has horns and a tail. The most prominent feature about him are his markings. He has scars that resemble black stitches that extend from the corners of his mouth and one that arches across his forehead and also a black tear beneath his eye.

He has always been helpful and there for me in hard times. I have anxiety and being a water sign astrologically I know I'm prone to psychic encounters or being empathic with people which tends to fuel the anxiety. He always calms me down or gets me through hard times. He first appeared when I was having suicidal thoughts, though I don't think I would have actually acted on them.

He is the one who convinced me that that way out would only further trap a soul in misery. He has been there for me through break-ups and always makes me feel better and protected from other demons or lower astral entities.

I never got a bad feeling from him but reading some things on line a while back made me rethink it in a way. What if he is just using me to eventually come to this plain or will eventually turn on me? But after 5 years of showing no signs of this I don't think that he will. Also, I have read stories where demons are good too and this I strongly believe. Not all angels are good, not all demons are terrible.

He tells me that his name is Belial, I do not know if he is the real Belial or if it is just a name he is using. If you have any thoughts on this do let me know. I have researched the real Belial and from most scriptures he is depicted as a Prince but also very evil. Religion often twists stories so out of focus though, he may not be evil, he may not even be the actual Belial in the first place but I do feel that he has a princely vibe about him and he can be a bit vain and arrogant at times, its cute in a way.

Or he may be a small energy fragment of the actual Belial combined with other energies based off myself. He feels powerful and he has never hurt me or anybody else.

Another odd thing recently is my current boyfriend greatly resembles him or vice versa. It was so odd when we first met, I've told him everything and we still cannot figure out why this is or if its anything at all. There is a bit more but it would make a whole other story.

I should also note that when first meeting this guide it felt like love and we did sort of have a relationship and very strong connection. I only mentally see and hear him unless he comes to me in dreams which he did. Its not really like that anymore, since I met this boyfriend I really love him instead of the demon and he seems okay with that. I'm beginning to wonder if he looks like him because he predicted that I would be with somebody like that and that he is happy for me? He doesn't seem upset and still there to support and protect me.

I know it all sounds very strange and it is. I would love to hear your thoughts and opinions so go ahead, anything is welcome.