I really need someone's help, I don't know what to do my abilities are literally taking over my life. It's like I don't have any control over anything anymore. Way back in like 6th grade I was the kind of person that wanted abilities (but didn't realize I had them) and I would practice things like Tk and other things like that the good thing is that the more I practiced the more it got better and the more I controlled it but then I went through depression (from things going on in the house) and every thing I did had like a mind of its own. The worse thing is that I keep getting new abilities and I have absolutely no control.
For a while I tried to convince myself that everything was fine and I would be Ok but its not. I won't tell you all exactly what's been going on but I will say this: Once I got into 7th grade I was completely lost because I got this new cursing ability and if I didn't follow a certain routine (like be respectful to others or don't tell anyone my secrets) I and others would get cursed and the most random of things would happen. In 8 grade it was the worst period of time for me. This year is the year I also found out I was a star child but still didn't give me any hope I at this point stopped practicing my abilities but they kept piling up. And then I started realizing that one of my new abilities is that whatever I think becomes reality. For example I can sit there and day dream about a car crash. I flip on the tv someone dies in a car crash. This happens every day I've gotten to the point where I don't want to day dream anymore because I don't want to cause anything to go wrong. This brings me to the current grade I'm in 9th grade. This is the most frustrating year I mean my personality is even changing but I also realized that whatever I believe becomes the truth. For example like when I found out I was a star child I read in a article that they don't get sick I completely believed this and ever since 8th grade I never got sick I am perfectly healthy even doctors said I am. I even drink and eat after sick people and I DON'T EVER get sick. But to this moment I can use all my abilities and strongly affect the world but at the same time its like I cant.It's like there is two sides of me: myself and another part trying to take over me. What's gong on?
This is all completely true and all I ask is what can I do (I've already tried to meditate) But I believe so far that my depression knocked something off balance. So someone please enlighten me.