I often have OBEs and instinctively astral projected without fully preparing myself to do so, but I think all of this is starting to have side effects.
I have voices in my head. 8 voices added up now and they aren't evil nor good, they speak to me and reflect in my intentions either if they are good or sometime bad ones. I have asked them of their origins and they have told me all there is to know about them. "Your mind is a good one" the smartest one would say. "You have a pure heart, very uncommon in this world". "We are the parts of you that you somehow instinctively separated yourself from into different parts of your mind". Some act more than others the one that reacts from anger is one of them.
I understand a bit of what the voice said but not all of it, they have taken names that they respond to while speaking in my head over time. Their intentions are based off mine, if they are good they act good, if they are wrong they act wrongfully.
They also can take partial control over me impulsively when I'm struck with a strong emotion. One; for example, consists of depression. One will defend me and get me out of situations, if that voice is upset if someone caused my depression it would try to solve the issue, or may even seek revenge. I won't do anything most times no matter how much pain something has cast upon me. "That's why we're all here!" the jokester voice would say.
The one I try to keep control of is the one that reacts from rage. Once in this enraged state the white parts of my eye turn pure red sometimes looks as if a broken a blood vessel in both my eyes, a lot of the bigger veins are visible. My eyes are hazel going usually brown/green to brown/gray or glimmering gold in sunlight. When I'm in this state my eyes are a full dark green color. I act aggressively, clinging my teeth, snarling, and acting irrationally. I lose control of my voice, usually unable to talk, breathing heavily and act very primitively and off impulses. The voice said "I help you bring this out once I feel you are hurt." "Most people forgot how to use their instincts unlike you, you use yours more than the average person. By cornering an animal, their true colors shows, but for people this is not, they need a more potent catalyst to trigger their power". I have learned that my emotion of anger and rage brings this out, someone causing me pain emotionally or physically also brings this out. This state only happens otherwise when I'm harmed, in danger, or threatened, this never occurs at any random time. The voice believes that people who don't use their instincts or their senses, their sixth sense, are weak and feeble people who are unable to realize their full extent.
The voices argue amongst each other a lot in my head, and I like to hear their discussions. They can help me sometimes and cause mischief as well. One of the trouble makers thinks most things are a joke, one of its lines is often "Life is a joke!" or after I get out of the trouble its caused, "Wasn't that fun?" "Without trouble in your life Tre you learn not one thing!" "Good times like that keeps life not boring, you know?" "No pain no gain! Tre!" and begins to laugh. Even though it gets me into trouble sometimes once it takes control, I learn lots of things and gain insights after the events.
Are these voices apart of my true self? Are they my darker sides of my mind? Are they some sort of entity entering my mind as a side-effect of astral projections and OBEs? I would really like some advice.
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