So, I live in Brazil. Living here, I don't have much help dealing with my problem. I can see and talk to spirits since I remember my first memories, they've always been here. I dream with some, I can see things that will happen and not only great things, daily things. Back when my great grandmother died, everything I saw and talked to suddenly stopped happening. I could yet know that they were there, but I could NOT talk to them or see them. For me, it was very traumatic cause when you can't see things, you can't deal with them. But they kept showing themselves in my dreams, and I was horrified cause they wouldn't let me rest at night. Before, they were just like everyone else alive I could talk... I saw them EVERYWHERE!
Well, recently my great grandfather (her husband) has died too. They were both like parents to me, so I think that their deaths were like the power that could close and open psychic abilities. Since my great dad died, I've seen some of them, talking to others, and mostly, God, mostly, they don't let me sleep. Ever, ever. And even before he died, my room was like a "spirits party", no jokes, everyone saw them here and everyone could feel them, and of course, I was always very annoyed by the bad feelings they gave me, I just couldn't see them. Now I can, but not always. I know I can't stop this, I just wish to know how can I communicate with them until my psychology is completely open to talk and see them once again. They really take over me, I'm always feeling sick or tired at my room. And right now, one of them is trying to stop me from writing this. It really scares me cause I know he's doing but I can't tell him not to and listen to his answer. By the way, it's a lady. A very bad lady.
Anyway, I'm freaking out here. My cats don't leave me alone, and they always stare at some point where I know the spirits are. I have an extra bed in my room and they all like to be there. And some stay with me at my bed and it's just the worst feeling of all. While I shower, there are three looking at me. Someday they're going to hurt me even more, and I won't be able to stop them. Many English spirits come to me (yes, spirits from England) and I have no idea why, being in Brazil. I have British accent and they have it too, so it sort of makes everything comfortable and I know it's not right. They're heavy, and they're on my shoulders. I need help, I need to know what to do and I sincerely hope some of you can give me some light.
P.S. I had a dream in which my cat talked to me, and she said there were over 10 spirits here. I know it wasn't my cat talking, but a spirit talking because I know this spirit's voice.
Desperately,
Lil.
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