I am a 36 year old mother of 4. I have ALWAYS had supernatural experiences throughout my life and truly believe I have a special gift. The reason I am writing is because I am at a cross roads as far as my gift is concerned. I have had dreams that come true many, many times. I have experienced a presence nearby, my side when I literally almost passed away. I have always had very precise intuition about people, events, etc., which always turn out to be accurate. I even had an experience where I was in meditation, and I visualized the stars and such, but then I was going extremely fast throughout space. I also saw a ball of light or fire while in meditation that was headed straight for me! That frightened me so I never tried to do that again.
To sum it up, I am scared. I'm not sure if I need medicine? Therapy? Or is this truly a genuine gift that I was born with? If the latter is correct, what do I do now? And why me? Am I meant to do good for others, or is it just simply a gift? Gosh, I'm so confused, I don't want to waste something so precious, and I am more than ready to get working on what I need to do to make this gift and my senses stronger so that I can be of use to someone in the future. If in fact that is what my calling is.
Oh, by the way, I come from a line of women, particularly my mom, who has had the same exact gift. But they were raised in the time when this was unacceptable, therefore they didn't pursue their gifts.
Any comments you have would be of great help to me.