I Experience Things I Cannot Explain

For about a year after my dad died, I would have nightmares every night and wake up to sleep in my mom's room. I've lost both of my grandfathers (1 when I was 12 and the other when I was 23). I knew before I was told that they were both gone.

I've had dreams about my dad where he told me that he can't be here with me but he's always there for me. I had another dream where he was brought back from the dead by his family and disgusted with being brought back and because of what they have done with their lives. I don't know why I was with him but I don't talk to my dad's side of the family.

My grandfather who passed away when I was 12 told me about my other grandfather dying, told me it would all be okay. He was looking up at the moon. He taught all his grandkids a song about it (the moon sees somebody I'd like to see).

I've seen my grandfather who passed away when I was 23 following me in a dream. When I thought of my grandma, he disappeared. I've seen him in another dream, he's sitting with my grandmother at all times and just watching me.

I've had dreams and have woken up with the smells that stick with me throughout most of the next day. Usually its the smell of decay or funeral flowers.

I've dreamt of the past: a place in Oregon from the 1800s, being in Italy in a wedding dress, getting married and not being afraid, children, experimental treatments of people who are dying.

I have had dreams about all my relationships that have come true. I once told a boyfriend after a few months that we weren't meant to be but to learn from each other. I don't know how I knew that. I dreamt of him proposing to a blonde haired blue eyed girl and that's who he married. My current boyfriend, I felt that I already knew him after one message sent to each other. He felt so familiar, like we've dated before.

I know answers to questions in my head before they are said out loud. I have several deja vu experiences.

Most of my dreams are about ghosts, the majority of the time they are people I've never met. They've had me read their headstones. I've seen people hang themselves. They touch me, want me to know they are there. I've talked with little kids. Then there are others always in the shadows that scare me. I feel heaviness in my chest and chilled to the bone. I've dreamt of people in black at a friend's house and found out the next day my friend's uncle died. I've dreamt of a family member waking me up in my sleep telling me about a woman who is there, her age and how she died. To the point of in my dream I was repeating what that person said. I woke up having to ask that family member if they really were there. They looked at me like I was crazy.

I've also been shown hidden rooms in houses I've never seen before. I've seen names, dates or cities too.

Now, I've been sensing other things. My dogs bark at nothing in the house (growling), feeling of being watched and wanting to get out of a certain place quickly. Lights flickering on and off. All of this happens ONLY when I am alone. Hearing voices I can't explain for time to time (woman whisper or children) when I am awake. Things going missing. When I ask for them back, they are in plain sight, the place I looked over 20x.

I can also feel the emotions of other people intensely. The anger in people, the sadness and despair to the point of me getting very angry or crying. Feeling like my heart is breaking. I can't explain why I feel like that.

Am I crazy?