I've never said any of the following to anyone before. I'm petrified people will think I'm crazy.
I'm a 19 year old female from a small town in the north.
As long as I can remember I've basically had an extreme version of deja vu. Something will happen but I'll feel like it will have happened before, and will often last for a long period of time. The only difference is I remember when I thought the thing was going to happen, and its normally not something stupid that can happen over and over again. I'll remember exact details everything, but I never know when its real or just my over active imagination until it actually happens.
Sometimes it would be a dream and I would remember waking up the next morning and thinking about it. Or I would daydream it almost, it would just sort of come to me when I was dazing off. When it came to me like that, and the event occurred I would always remember where I was when I said hey this is going to happen.
For awhile during my high school years I tried really hard to stay in touch with my spiritual side and everything became even stronger. The phone would ring and I would know who it was. I would have vivid dreams that would lead to my strange deja vu, or would be almost warnings of things to come.
The next thing has been happened for a year or two now. A couple years ago my beloved cat Sage passed away. I was very close to her, and we had had her since she was a kitten. I held her as she passed on, and as I cried for days. I'm crying as I talk about her now. She often slept on my bed, either curled up next to me. Well a little while after she passed on I would feel a cat curled up at the foot of my bed, or walking along my bed. I knew it was there because I sensed and could feel the weight pressing down on the bed. The first few times it scared the living daylights out of me because obviously there wasn't actually a cat there (I checked several times). Now I've come to the point where I've guessed that this is my cat. She still sleeps with me sometimes. For awhile it was every night.
Another thing is I'm an empath, I can guess peoples emotions much easier then a normal person should be able to. Just the other day I IM'd a close friend of mine from school asking him what was wrong because my gut told me too, so I did. Turned out a lot was wrong and he needed someone to talk to. This is just one example.
The strangest thing that happens to me is my knowledge for knowing when I need things. When I go places I'll have strange urges to bring random unexplainable items. And I always need them. It happens the other way too, something will tell me not to bring something I normally should bring and normally there is good reason I shouldn't have it with me. One example of this being I went to my boyfriends house last weekend and my gut told me to bring batteries, yes batteries, random as it gets. So I brought them, and we needed them in order to do what we had planned. And that's a simple one, they get way more intense. It's just very hard to explain. I just seem super sensitive to everything.
Other things have happened to me, most of them vague. I often wonder if I just have an over active imagination and none of this is real. I've never talked to anyone about this. And I guess I want someone to tell me I'm not crazy. I want someone to tell me what's happening to me. And I want to know if I can control it, get better at it, use it for something besides bringing awkward items to someone's house because I know its needed. (Bringing tinfoil to your best friends house is often counted as weird no matter what society you live in).
So please if you need detail asks, and I'll gladly share more. This is just the bare bones because I honestly am afraid to talk, and don't know what to say.
Thank you,
Kate
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Mm, well Kate, you're not crazy, but it sure feels like it doesn't it? I once had near continuous Deja Vu for a full hour, often say things for no reason I can explain only to watch near strangers accuse me of spying on them, I've been in houses where all the light switches turned themselves off and I lucid dream almost exclusively much of the time this gives way to the so called out of body experience. I imagine you;re probably long gone from the forum by now, but maybe someone else will find this helpful. It can get pretty weird.