I Definitely Have A Gift

I'm going to try to put this as simply as possible. I have always been highly intuitive since I was a child. I've had a lot of different experiences ie:seeing a victorian woman's spirit, hearing whispered convo, having prophetic dreams visions. But particularly I'm very talented at reading goddess Tarot. I have been for about 15 years now, well almost 2 years ago I came to learn about numerology and once I realized that I used to count these numbers that I see a lot in the shape of an eye not realizing that the number is the number of Illumination and 3Rd eye, psychic abilities. I had no idea what I was doing. Now I'm 37 years old and I can know things about people that I can't explain. When this first started happening I would hear things and see flashes of light. I would get this vibrating feeling in my stomach that was beyond any kind of Goosebumps I got doing cards. Insane but awesome. I realized after study numerology that my name is multiples of 11. Ever since I was a little girl I would count the number same 11 22 33, now I know they're Master Numbers. This has been a real trip and ever since studying numbers I think, well I believe I can Channel messages. I've heard voices and seen images in my mind and often know names of deceased loved ones of the person I'm reading or looking at. I feel as if my physical Sensations of ascending like the bells and Chimes and flashes of light have kind of chilled out and I'm not sure why.I'm actually kind of bummed about it can anyone help me because I have been looking for anyone who's willing to help but can't find someone not asking me for money. I do a lot of readings for free so I don't make much $. But the feeling an expression of gratitude after I am able to give a reading is really more than any amount of money could ever give me. I feel like I already won the lottery I just need someone who understands me and doesn't think I'm nuts I hope I found it here.