So it all started around grade 3 when I was just going to school and not even thinking about anything besides what flavour of JJ I should get for lunch or how fun Art class was in the afternoon. The world consisted of Three places: Home, School and Church. I didn't go out to the shops or hang in the town like I do now. Life was simple, Monday through to Friday got to school, come home and do homework, watch cartoons, eat dinner, play games, watch TV and then go to bed. But it all changed one forgotten day back when I was only 7.
I dreamt
The first dream I can ever remember, and one of the only things I remember of my life before grade 10.
In this dream I and my grade were on an excursion, we were walking up a street that had three houses on one side and nothing else seemed to exist, no corner on the end of the block, nothing on the opposite side, not even the bus we must have caught there.
Looking at the houses one could see little gold plates attached near the door way of each one, and upon each one a picture was carved.
The first house contained two trolls, as depicted by the gold plate and we could hear crashing noises from inside as the trolls played around, "Not for us" the teacher said, and we all agreed.
The next house had a larger plate and as we approached it we saw that a dragon was artistically carved on it. Then, as some of us were standing near the door, there was a loud crash sound as the roof suddenly exploded and the dragon's long neck and his thorny head came out shooting fire into the air.
Well I can tell you we all went running off the verandah to join our class again and move to the next house.
The final house on this non-existant street was a very special house. It seemed so old and it strongly reminded me of my grand-parents, or of at least someone's grandparents. We all approached the screen door knowing that we would have to go in there as we had not gone into the first two. Up at the door we examined the golden plate which was to our right. A marvel, the golden plate was so shiny and it was decorated with a fancy border with carnations to boot. This plate contrasted so much with the rest of the house which was just so normal, old and dusty but a classic Aussie house, a lot like the one my grandparents live in. This plate was even larger that the dragon's, almost three times the size, and as we looked it up and down we saw that there was nothing scribed on it. It was like staring into a gold mirror.
We entered thinking this was the safest house there being nothing on the plate. As we walked through we saw the rooms, furniture, the wallpaper, vases and other sorts of normal things one would have. Everything in the house was clean, no dust, as if people were still living in it yet the house was completely empty. One of the girls screamed, we rushed to her and saw the same horrible thing she did. 10 or so floating objects coming towards us. Going back to the living room we found the same fate awaited us from the back deck and the kitchen. Objects of all nature were floating towards us, dare I say advancing on us, and we were all terrified. What were we to do?
I, the most scared I assume (me being the person actually experiencing this as everyone else was a dream), searched around the room, my eyes rapidly examining every shoe, scarf, walking stick, shirt, sweater, kerchief, glove and watch etc etc that came to us, looking for a way out. Then I saw him.
A top hat was floating there in the crowd and without knowing why I ran towards him, fell to my knees, closed my eyes and hugged it. I remember thinking "He's here, he's here, everything will be ok" I simply kneeled there hugging the Top Hat knowing, not hoping, that it WOULD all go away. I woke up with tears of joy. The way the Hat made me feel just by being there, just from me seeing it, it made me feel so happy, it is indescribably the best feeling in the world.
Over the many many years I have come to learn that this Hat is my "Guide" or something similar and I have had more visits from him but I have never been able to control when he comes.
Is there anyone out there who has some advice on this subject? Also I don't know who this person is or what they look like as they are just a floating hat at the moment. So, are there things I can do so I can learn who this person is? Or if there is anyone out there who might know something about this person it would appreciated?
Thank you all