Last night was a normal night for me, I was just laying in my bed and watching YouTube on my phone. I decided to go get my drawing notebook and draw since I was bored but that's when it all turned around
I started shaking and I felt like I was only slightly in control of my body at this point. I flipped to an empty page in my notebook and wrote "let me out!" Neatly at the top left coroner then I wrote it again and again each time faster and sloppier than the last and it got to a point where I wasn't under any control of myself and started crying. I ripped the paper with the pencil and then started to get in a Fetal position with my arms hugging my head rocking back and forth saying "let me out let me out let me out" and crying for a good 5-10 minuets then I decided If I went to sleep It might stop. I took a bit of control of my body back and laid back down in bed and closed my eyes but then I unconsciously tried breaking my arm and leg off and then scratched my arm until it bled.
Finally I got to sleep and I did have a dream and there was a figure that was in a cage screaming to let it out over and over but I didn't want anymore of that craziness to happen so I told it "no! Wait! It'll be okay!" Which is also what I said trying to make the thing go away earlier and it worked and I slept without any interruptions after that.
I don't know, like forever I've had this thing where I wanted to be free but I didn't understand it never felt like me wanting it But this is the first time anything like that had happened before.
But, how exactly did you feel? Were you thinking about anything before that would maybe activate that reaction? Did you feel alone inside yourself or in your room? Or do you think there was some intruder? I have had similar experiences, and I know how to help you. If you want, you can email me at; ninjalover07 [at] gmail.com and I can help.