I won't share too many details, other than that I'm a 16 year old female. I've done research on my own and have played with the idea that I'm an indigo child, but I figured I would ask the experts here.
My first "weird" experience was when I was four. I was laying in bed with the door open (I never sleep with the door) with my mom when I saw these beings walk into the room, one by one. They were ghost-like, translucent, and clear as day. I wasn't dreaming. They were wearing old clothes, from the late 1800's I believe. My mom didn't see them, but I know I wasn't dreaming.
I've been able to predict songs that come up on the radio, and knowing who's going to call and all that jazz. I also have a knack for knowing when someone's lying. Lies never get past me. Ever.
I have very bipolar feelings. I either feel things strongly or I don't feel anything at all. I'm either all in or not in at all. I prefer to be alone, although I do enjoy the company of people sometimes. I'm strong willed. I can be incredibly kind, but also very cold. I've experimented with religion but ultimately I don't believe in a stereotypical "God". It doesn't seem to fit in the scheme of it all. I'm usually kind of lazy (I get distracted incredibly easily and my thoughts wander like crazy. I can never stay focused.) but when I find something I'm interested in or passionate about, you can't keep me away. I can be INCREDIBLY passionate about things, like animal and human rights. I'm that crazy semi-vegan chick who's preaching love and happiness. I get called a hippie sometimes as I don't believe in war or violence and I want to stop it. I love to travel, get lost, and explore. I'm very musical as well.
I'm fascinated with flying and space, and have been since I was little. I read that indigo children have remarkable eyes, and I always get comments on my big green eyes. Tons. I have a terrible memory. I love to learn but hate the educational system. I also dislike sharing. I have reasons though.
IMPORTANT! Lately, I've felt almost "awakened". I feel like i'm seeing the world differently than everyone else, like there's more out there and that this world is so beautiful and humans are destroying it. I've felt like the majority of mankind is disgusting and vile, and have no morals or sense. It disgusts me to the point where I feel physically sick. I've been really secluded and done a lot of thinking, and I almost feel like I'm not from this world. Like there's no way I'm from a planet where the majority of people are so disgusting. I'm not saying I'm better than them, but I just feel different. I don't know why, but all of a sudden I'm interested in spirituality. I feel like I just understand the world differently than most.
SORRY FOR THE NOVEL, but I'm really seeking some guidance.
Much love,
Eyesthatwander.
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Think, "Why do I feel like this?" Or "Is this my own emotion?"
That helps me a lot. Try your best to hone your ability! When you grow more, your strengths grow more.
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-Silver