Everything Is Becoming Strange Again

I've gone through depression myself and I'm pretty sure I created my own alter ego or something. My sister called it a split personality but whatever.

Anyways, thanks for your input and congratulations on making it through your depression. It's extremely difficult to get out of that. Especially on your own. I'm not sure if she's my guardian or not but she's definitely someone who's very protective of me and it's nothing like an inner voice though like you've described. I'll try meditating and seeing if she will communicate with me somehow. She doesn't appear very often but when she does it's as if she's always been there. And once again thank you for sharing your story:)

There's a beautiful thing about the Bible, and that you don't have to be Christian to fully understand or comprehend the value of the things that go on in it. The book was in many ways written to help those who are psychologically sensitive compared to others, people who are 'gifted,' with forces of the unknown, or things that pertain to what we would consider God, or the Oneness of all things. I truly believe that at the heart of all things, there is something that gives life to everything, something deep in the core of existence. You sound more agnostic than anything, and I doubt this being that has come to you is trying to harm or scare you.

What may be happening, and please, don't take everything I write directly as truth as you have to find most of the truth on your own, is that some kind of spiritual entity is about or around you, that may simply want you to understand the spiritual side of the world as she may feel you are close to understanding the beautiful effects it may have on you. Premonition in dreams are quite amazing, and I now where you're coming from, they can be both spectacular and frightening to an extent, especially if you dream something terrible happening and it comes to life.

Whether it is a Guardian or not is debatable as guardians can manifest themselves in more ways than just that. This is something that has happened to me recently, and for some reason something tells me it can help you with what you are going through. I was recently extremely depressed, lost even, to the point of suicide and some other things. When I was little, I had prayed to God to send me a Guardian angel and after those days strange things would happen, I would hear voices of woman guiding me around, and she would keep me from making overall bad decisions.

A few months back, I went through a very hard time. Both spiritual and mentally, psychologically I was a mess and so unstable that I developed an alter-personality that was bent on destroying my life through any way possible. It was literally a battle for the control of my body, and still to this day I feel the scars of what happened to me. However, through it I discovered something most beautiful within me.

That feminine voice was actually my pure self, it was my guardian, the guardian of my core personality, my core individuality that only God, the Goddess, the Oneness or whatever you want to call it protects and keeps safe for me. It is a very powerful inner strength that stems from your deepest conscious, the pure you before the world harmed you and made you put up shields and masks to protect your inner-self. Whenever I got depressed, this being would swarm me with love - love that was filled with the will to live and to keep me going no matter how difficult things became, it would tell me that it loved me, that "I" loved me enough that I would push myself from my depression or suicidal attempts and keep going on.

This is my experience with guardians and the Inner Self.

If you feel safe around her, she could also be like your spiritual guide, it isn't uncommon for them to take forms around you and you can certainly feel when they are around you. As my own have definitely done the same. Tell this person you love them and thank them for protecting you or guiding you toward the direction of spirit and psychological magics, and see what kind of reaction you get.

That's my two-cents, love and take care~

She gives me a really safe feeling when shes around like she's my protector or something though... I feel like maybe she is my guardian... Maybe not... And I'll try reading the bible some time. I always am cautious because spirits can be very deceiving but thank you for the advice:)

Maybe you should consider reading the Bible, at uncertain times in our lives sometimes religion can offer a comfort and a source of guidance. I'm not trying to convert you because I'm not a Christan myself. All I'm trying to say is perhaps you should give reading it a try. Some believe that if there are spirits near, reading the Bible can help protect you from them or encourage them to leave.

I'm unsure whether she is your guardian angel or not because its strange that her emotions spill onto you and you feel like something bad is going to happen. I would be cautious with her if I were you.

Hopefully everything sorts itself out soon.