Looking For Guidance

I have been witnessing several things since I was seven. My uncle died I saw a shadow figure in my door way the same night as my sister. I stayed the night at my aunt's, and saw a short shadow in her hallway one second it was at her doorway, the next standing in the doorway leaning out looking down the hallway at me I asked her the next morning who was the figure I saw in the hallway? She asked me you saw someone last night (I assumed it was my aunt going to the bathroom trying to make sense of it) nope she never got up las tnight turns out a woman died in the house. I then asked her the name and my aunt couldn't remember. When I was a teenager I knew my mom was going to die before she did. I would see myself sitting in class and my dad coming to get me, and tell me she had passed. Turns out I was not the young girl. My little sister that was in class that had to be checked out. I had a feeling. To just jump up at 8 am and go to moms something was wrong if I had listened I would have found my mom. But I ignored it When I in 2010 I would be driving to alcolu to my exbf parents and Every time I went around this one curve and I would slow down, and see a flash of crashing into the woods my hands would start sweating. I seen this about seven times and when the fourth of July came around I was so scared to go anywhere I told my boyfriend at the time something was wrong. He said don't say stuff like that I said I can't help it I have felt this way for two days. My sister Amanda showed up at eleven banging on my door hysterical I opened it and thought it was daddy then said daddy she said no I said Donna (my other sister) she said yes how did you know I said I just know she looked at me crazy, and called my brother and asked If I had spoke with anyone who knew and nobody knew how I knew. Last year I had a thing? I do not like any of my doors open no closets, no bathroom doors nothing not even curtains I was in bed and then I wasn't I walked into this house as soon as I walked in there was a bed no sheets a woman and a small baby with a onezee on this man comes out of nowhere bald in a suit I didn't feel threatened but I asked myself what he was doing there then the man said watch what I can do he pointed at the baby on the bed all of a sudden the baby turned into a big white bulb and shot straight up into the sky like through the ceiling I asked him crying please don't do that he said its my job I cried so hard he vanished I tried to wake the woman but I couldn't I was screaming. I jolted up in my bed and all the three doors were open the bathroom the walk-in closet and the bedroom door. My friend Robin came into the room at eight in the morning saying that her sons cousins newborn child passed away yes this really happened I told my boyfriend why I had jumped in the middle of the night got up and shut the doors laid back down laid there until I passed out. When the funeral came I finally got to hug her and whispered to her in her ear he is okay he is in heaven if she needed anyone to speak to I could talk to her. I'm not very sure but I would like input with this it bothers me so much I don't speak to people about it. Because I feel as if they will not understand so many more things are happening I don't know where to turn.