Angry And Wanting Out

By Corvus_Sallex
(1 stories) (3 posts) (the author is a young adult)
Date: 2013-01-07
Country: United States
State: Minnesota
Category: Misc

I have always had a fasination with the paranormal and a lot of paranormal things have happened to me in my 17 years. I used to tell my parents all about them because I didn't understand why or what was happening. They always used a rational way to explain these strange happenings and mostly told me it was my imagination. As a result, I have severly suppressed my intuition and other gifts, although I have been receiving signs about them still existing, which have been occuring more and more as I am getting older. I have the gift of interpretation, that much I know from events that have happened to me. I can predict how my day will go from seeing two birds perched on a high wire. I have used tarot cards and although they don't seem to work in answering my questions, I have given many successful readings online and have helped a great many people in doing so.

Recently I have become very interested in strengthening my skills. I have been reading everything I can find, but I do not know what to trust. I have been reading stories and taking tests on this website and I have found that I am extremely sensitive to energies and could potentially be very strong in any of the psychic gifts I have, but I don't know how to let that part of myself out. If that makes any sense?

A week ago (I already translated my dream) I had a dream that was rather odd: I was on a wooden ship heading towards a storm and in the clouds was a huge lion head. It roared and me and I growled back, that's when hail, that looked like icebergs, started falling from the sky and I was afraid it would destroy the ship, but they seemed to go through it, if they even hit it. When I translated it using a dream dictionary, it pretty much told me that there was a powerful force inside of me that was angry and wanted to get out and that I was frustrated that I couldn't help it.

I feel like I am suppressing my powers and have tried a lot of things to help them surface, but to no avail. It scares me sometimes when it breaks through even just a little because I am not aware that it is, like when ghosts show themselves to me. I need help, I feel like I am going crazy at some points due to this. Any suggestions on how to break it free?

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darkassassin92 (1 stories) (216 posts)

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10 years ago (2014-06-28)

Sometimes I feel very angry like someone is controlling its like I can't control it.

JadeEyes (4 posts)

10 years ago (2014-06-28)

Try chakra meditations, breathing/stillness exercises to help ground yourself. Astral projecting and such things may sound flashy and cool but none of it is helpful if you haven't built your foundation and learned basics like stillness, shielding, and raising your vibrational energies. You don't want to be a hot-shot street-fighter going up against an experienced MMA champion.

I know it goes without saying - but I sincerely hope you've stopped stealing energies from others. As an empath, I cannot even describe what an anathma that is to spiritual healers. It is also completely unnecessary when there is a bounty of energy within yourself and your connection to spirit and the earth.

If you're coming from a lower vibrational state (which seems that way from your posts), you can't forge a good connection with spirit. I was taught it was like building a bridge. You need to be in a good state to build your half of the bridge to reach the other half being built towards you.

Try taking three deep breaths - in for a count of 4, hold for 4, release for 8. Check in with how you're feeling before the breath set and after. See if you can feel any difference.

Corvus_Sallex (1 stories) (3 posts)

11 years ago (2013-07-27)

No I did not, I agree they were too pricey. Now there are more things pointing to my gift that are external. I can feel the energies of people and recently (though I know it's wrong) steal some energy from people when I am worn out at work. I have just recently been trying to astral project and was able to reach my sanctuary and meet my higher self, but it appeared to me like a dementor from Harry Potter but where it's face should have been it was all fuzzy like when you try to look through a candle flame. It scared me and I do not know what it could mean. I haven't gone back since. Now my abilities are sharpening, but without my control. I have seen "people" out of the corner of my eye, but when I turn to look they vanish. I almost ran into one of these "people" and yelled out from being startled... But no one was there. I am getting so confused and am in desperate need of help right now. Are there any experienced psychics looking to take someone under their wing?

Veronika (1 posts)

11 years ago (2013-07-24)

Hi I just wanted to ask you if you ever took those courses with anna sayce, I think they are too pricey in my opinion. I am a little disappointed with her actually.

Anaelyssa (1 stories) (135 posts)

12 years ago (2013-01-10)

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

I just didn't want to push spirituality on you. Some people have very "practical" standpoints. From my point of view, it is necessary to study religion/spirituality because that is the only science that tells you how and why to live your life and what life IS.

The argument goes like this:
-Why do you work?
-To feed myself.
-Why?
-Because I need to eat in order to live.
-Why do you need to live?

The human asks "what is the point of living? What should I do with my life?" The answer is that "existence is pure joy" and "do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law." The hard part is "do" and "will" because it implies that you have to find your True Will, that is your purpose in life, and then actually DO it.

Now that is all very well, say practical people, but how are you going to put food on the table and pay rent? What does your wonderful (read "stupid") religion say about that?

I'm still in the process of finding my finite will for this lifetime, so I have no definite way to answer those questions for myself.

I'm only an experienced student, not an experienced psychic yet. I must must must start practicing more often.

I'm not judging you by age. I tend to judge people on the quality of their writing. You didn't sound like a ditzy teenager. And you wrote in paragraphs!

Love is the law, love under will.

Corvus_Sallex (1 stories) (3 posts)

12 years ago (2013-01-10)

Thanks for the web links, I hope to read the first one once I am done with school, college classes take a lot of time out of your day.
I do know that a person's psychic ability is liked to their spirituality, the prophets used the means of clairvoyancy and clairaudience to hear God's word and preform His will. I am not simply looking into psycic abilities because I want a "cool power" I feel as though I am here for a higher calling and want to fufill it. I feel like I was put here for a reason, heck my parents didn't even know they were having twins until late in the pregnancy, they say it's like I just appeared. I want to know more about what is calling me, that is why I came to this website. I know the dream was some sort of message telling me that I need to act. I am making my stand, I just don't know where to start. This is why I am asking for the help from experienced phsychics like yourselves, not for juvinille reasons. Please do not let my age cloud your judgement of me, I am more mature in most areas of my personality than many adults I know. I just want to make that clear. Thank you for understanding.

Anaelyssa (1 stories) (135 posts)

12 years ago (2013-01-08)

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.

If you're not against reading, then may I suggest http://hermetic.com/crowley/magick-without-tears/?

This book is also good, but can be a little difficult for beginners (or rather, anyone other than the author) http://www.sacred-texts.com/oto/lib4.htm.

Perhaps you only want to develop some "cool" power, but ultimately, psychic abilities are connected to spirituality, or rather, the physical and mental state of a person.

The magickal tradition is a bit bulky, but the least you can get from it is a capability for critical thinking, and some practical considerations for future work. You're always encouraged to go your own way (but once you're on it, stay).

If you want some basic exercises, here's a list. There's also a nice reading list at the bottom; most of the stuff can be found online. Http://hermetic.com/crowley/libers/lib9.html

Here's some other exercises http://hermetic.com/crowley/libers/lib6.html. There's plenty of discussions online if you need help on these and care to look it up.

I am extremely intellectual, and I've read a lot of books on psychic abilities. At first, what they were telling me was new to me, but at some point, it was all the same. Encountering the magickal tradition, I finally found someone sane and wielding the sword of reason and not something touchy-feely-new-agey (that's just my frustration from those years). While psychic stuff and spirituality transcends reason, that doesn't mean reason should be abandoned on the roadside.

Love is the law, love under will.

Corvus_Sallex (1 stories) (3 posts)

12 years ago (2013-01-08)

Thank you for the feed back and as for the channeling I will research it and try to find exercises to help me achieve this. I have done a lot of exercises lately and have noticed my clairaudience has greatly improved, so I am going to continue that exercise. As for clairvoyancy I have tried many exercises had have had no, or very little, improvement for all that I have put into it. Any suggestions on exercises that will help? Also I found a online class to teach people how to strengthen and awaken to their psychic abilities, it is from the website psychic but sane and is written by Anna Sayce. Has anyone used this? I am not sure if I want to spend all that money to take these e-classes if they are ineffective.

PathR (4 stories) (1274 posts)

12 years ago (2013-01-08)

Most likely, your next step will be a channelling.
And it sounds like this energy you are acknowledging
As Lion (aka: Anger). Is just a Spirit Energy which
Is bursting and is very "matter of fact", speaking
Like a Lion. And when you finally allow the channel
To flow through you, your going to be very surprised about the precision.

If I were you.
I would dedicate some time and just ask
For confirmation?

Question the dream? Asking are you an Anger that is
Governed by storms of life?
Or are you a Higher Guide, whom wishes to use me
As a Channel in helping change the storms in peoples
Lives?

AnneV (4 stories) (1064 posts) mod

12 years ago (2013-01-08)

First, if you can, try and give yourself a break. As you yourself said, you've been told most of your life this is 'your imagination' and have suppressed a natural ability up until recently. These things don't change overnight. This is like eating whatever you want, gaining weight, and then saying, "I want to be thin today, why is it taking so long?" You have to undo what was a lifetime of programming. And to add to all this is your natural fear of the unknown (as you mentioned for example the ghosts).

Start small. I know we all want it now and it's frustrating as can be not to get it instantly, but start building these atrophied psychic/metaphysical muscles from step one. Have you read the article under the articles section on how to increase your ability? Go read that and pick out what resonates with you. You will slowly start to experience new things, get accustomed to how they make you feel, your experiences will broaden, and eventually, you'll be doing all that you want to do. You're actually very lucky you are questioning this now, versus people who go their entire lives never questioning this!

As far as what to trust, this will become self evident. We trust what becomes a reality. For example, if your tarot reading is accurate and helps many, then I'd say you can trust this. If you've got an inner voice telling you negative things that don't resonate with your higher wishes, then I'd say to not trust that. Experience will teach you what is working for and with you, and what is not.

Best to you,
Anne

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