I think that my friend and I have a special bond together that goes beyond the basic senses. I would like to know:
1) if this bond really is something special?
2) how to make it stronger?
3) why don't I have this bond with anyone else?
To start off he is my best friend but also my ex boyfriend. I felt as though we were destined to meet. The reason I believe that is because when he first saw me he said it was like love at first sight however I did not feel the same way. I was introduced to him but honestly, immediately forgot about him and just went on with my life. A few months later, I "met" him again at school (he remembered me, I didn't remember him) and he invited me to a campus event his club was throwing. I said maybe once again completely forgetting his existence (I had a lot going on at the time). A few months later I met some girls at a party who I clicked with and they said I should join their drama club once school starts. So I did and sure enough, there he is at the first drama club meeting, and I (once again) did not have a clue who he was. I introduced myself and he politely told me we had already met. From then on it was cake and we hit it off and dated for 9 months growing to be best friends.
Unfortunately he called it off because he felt that he was not in love with me even though I was/am in love with him. He is also clinically depressed. But even though we were broken up we still grew closer as friends and still hung out and (I'll admit) are sometimes still physical.
Now the weird things started happening closer to the end of our relationship with little things like texting each other at the same time after not talking for a while or he'll start talking about something I was thinking and vice versa. But lately it's been getting stronger. We both went to a water park neither of us really ride big slides be he wanted to conquer his fear that day and got in line for a big slide with my dad as I watched from below. About the time they got to the top of the line I started to feel really anxious and nervous so much so that I put my hand on my chest to calm myself down. I thought that was very strange and when they got off the ride he said when they got to the top of the line he got so nervous he almost changed his mind and I told him I was feeling his feelings! That's when it started
Earlier this week I decided to ask him if I could crash at his house since I do a lot and it was close to my Dr's office so I texted him asking if I could and he replied telling me that his phone was actually on silent but at the moment I texted him he woke up because he thought I was standing in the doorway (which is something I actually do before getting in bed when I come over) and that's what woke him up.
The last thing was that I had 3-4 dreams last night that I remember and he was in all of them. Once I woke up, I had a feeling I was in his and sure enough, he texted me telling I was in his dream!
So if someone could help me answer my questions that would be great. If it helps we met when I was 19. Now I am 21 and he is 26.
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