Heavy Feeling That Does Not Want To Go Away

I really hope someone can help me out with this. For the past couple of months, I have been having a heavy feeling that does not want to go away. On Feb 18, 2012 my grandma pass away and since her passing strange thing have been occurring to everyone in my family. Some of my family members have claimed to seen her, others like myself have interact with her through dreams and some have felt her touch. Now the reason why I'm telling you this is because everyone claims that everything that is happening to me might be associated with her. Lately I been seeing lots of shadows and in some occasion rushing at me from behind, I feel like there is something wrong in my house, but also worldwide. I'm a 21 year old guy and during those 21 years of my life, I dreamt 3 times of been possess and the third one happened three days ago. In this dream, I was in my house I don't know how it happen but my whole body was in shock, it was rushing/full of energy, like a current of energy. I knew I was possess by something (and to me it felt evil) but somehow I was in control and not so scared, while my body was been possess I guess I was in what you call "another dimension" and there was 6 German Shepherd.

I remember going around, padding each dog on their lower back to get up and to go outside of what seems to be my house. After getting each dog outside I went outside and this ray of sunlight hit my right side of my face (I forgot to mention of how vivid this dream was, it was so vivid that I even felt the warm sunlight in my face). When I stood up outside, two other animals appeared, a chimpanzee on my left cover with a black aura sitting down looking at me and on my right side what seems to be either an ape or a orangutan (most likely an orangutan) standing straight up cover with a shining light around his head. I knew they wanted me to choose between the two and all I did was look down and told them "I want to live in peace and harmony" and end up waking up after that. I really need an explanation to this, because I have never dreamt of anything like this. Another thing that is been happening and this is way before my grandma's death, is that I been having dreams in which I'm fighting some evil entity. I wish I can explain in more detail, but every time I get this dream I know that is coming and I'm always completely aware of every action I take in this type of dreams and after my "battles" I always wake up with a burning feeling inside of me. When I was either 13 or 14 years old, I was attacked by a shadow. My room was completely dark and I was having the worst nightmare of my life, completely awake in my dream and not able to wake up from it. That experience has scared me for life, because since that time I have not been able to sleep without some sort lighting in my room. During that attack,, it was pinning me down, holding that back of head and then it let go. I rapidly woke up and sow this human like shadow standing next to me and quickly backing away and yes! This thing was darker than dark and I was able to see it moving in my dark room. The reason why I'm telling this experience is because every time I get those "evil fighting dream" they seem to attack me from behind my back and the back of my head, to them and to me, this is a weak point. I'm not able to sleep facing up or sideways (exposing my back) without been attack. I never try "grounding" or putting up a "psychic shield", I normally pray before I go to bed and it seems to work and keep whatever it is away, but I'm so scared of it, that sometime I let it influence me.

Before I started typing this post I did a little research on chakras and this two brought my attention, the cardiochakra and the nucalchakra. According to the site, the nucalchakra "positioned at the back of the head in the cerebellum region, the nucal chakra is related to communication with non-physical consciousnesses (individuals who have passed away). Sometimes we experience various sensations in this chakra when such consciousnesses are present. People who exhibit greater energetic sensitivity and who have an aptitude for mediumship usually have a more activated or sensitive nucal chakra" so after reading this, I got more freak out! Because unless I'm reading this wrong and adding my experiences, something is either trying to take control over me or forcing itself to have a communication with me or am I just paranoid. Please help!

Also am I the only one who is feeling the negativity in the world increasing spiritually?

Love and respect

Spirited-away