Dream Of My Future Troubled Relationship

When I had turned 13, I dreamed of falling in love with a man with a complicated life (a drug dealer). I never paid attention to it because I had thought it was stupid and I would never be with a person like that! In my dream I was madly in love with him. He was chased as we lived together. Though I never had a part of what he did, I feared for him. I became pregnant in my dream We were so excited and happy! Then he was suddenly disappearing, he was saying his goodbyes to me, he passed away. I had turned 18 when I gave myself to this military boy, he, of course promised many things. I went to the Dr's because I was not feeling well. They ran some test, the night before the results I had a nightmare of this deformed man on top of me, behind him a deformed woman. In the nightmare I saw myself become deform as he walks away. When I went for the results I had the shameful news that he was not taking care of himself. He had diseases and I have never been so ashamed embarrassed, disgusted with myself. Years later I met this young man on July 2010. He was sophisticated and well mannered and accepted me knowing my history, we dated and fell in love. We moved in together and it was then that I found out what lifestyle he has. I couldn't bear the thought of being without him so I stayed by his side, I would dream at nights but never paid any attention, but he did. One night as I talked while asleep, I was asking for him not to be taken away, He asked "who's going to take me?" I answered "the police" He tried asking more but I fell back asleep. The next morning he told me about it and went out early as I stayed making breakfast, a neighbor telling me he was arrested moments later. I couldn't believe it. I waited for his sentence, he was let out free with a drug court program. He took the opportunity and was hopeful. It had been too late, I'm now a single mother, my Fiancée passed away while I was 3 months pregnant. He had been consuming that crap poison since he was 8, which I did not know and had thought it had been later. His legacy lives on and she is beautiful, she is the proof of our love and looks exactly like him! Why couldn't I remember the stupid dream! I've had more towards a car accident, next day we were hit by a car and thank goodness nothing happened to my baby! I had another one with my cousin struggling and I saw small black things in a jar that belonged to her. She had an emergency surgery for gall stones and was induced because of it, her daughter is in the hospital! She is premature/ 7 months! What the hell why can't I warn anybody, why can't I stop things from happening on time, How can I? I need answers please! These aren't the only dreams I have. I need to understand them! I talk about them before it happens and my mother has these kind of dreams too.