This all started after I experienced the most terrifying thing I've ever experienced when I was a kid. I was so young back then. It still haunts me until this day, though. And I think it's time that I find answers. I'm tired of not knowing what I'm experiencing. It's confusing, and I dislike it. After seven years, I'm finally going to try to find out if what I'm seeing is really just my imagination, or something else.
This all started when I was at seven years of age. I had woken up, and I saw a girl. At first, I thought she was real, but the more I thought about why she was here, the more I realized how transparent she is. She had long, wavy auburn hair that stopped at her elbows. She was extremely pale, and I could see the freckles on her face. Her eyes were dark brown and they looked like they could see your soul. She had a white night gown on, and had scratches on her arms, face, and I think legs. She had no socks or shoes on. She was barefoot. She wasn't staring at me. More like she was staring at the light streaming from the window.
I was scared. I didn't understand what was going on, and I was frozen in place. I wanted to scream, but I couldn't. I was terrified. Then realization came and I decided that I needed to get out FAST. I didn't want to stay, but I didn't want to move either. The thoughts like, "You're putting yourself at risk here. You're not moving! What if she hurts you?" made me get out of that horrid place. At the same time, I didn't want to because I was scared she was going to move and grab me. I got up slowly, still in shock of what I'm seeing in front of me. She didn't move. She looked like she was stuck; frozen in that spot. After I got past her, I didn't look back. I ran downstairs and didn't talk about it to anyone.
I remember seeing shadows at night when I was awake, too. I'm not sure if this really is important. I had a cat named Fluffy at the time, and I saw him get on top of things he couldn't possibly reach. Such as the television. I cried out, saying, "Mommy. Why is Fluffy here!?". My cat, Fluffy wasn't allowed in our room and how could he even go on those? My mom turned on the light, and the dark figure shaped like my cat is wrong. She asked me what was wrong, and I knew I wasn't just dreaming. I'm very confused about this. Even to this day.
I grew up evenutally and started to ignore these shadows. I can't see them now, but a year ago, I had the feeling of being watched. It freaked me so much, I started to cry. This started to happen when I had a dream of her; the girl, in front of our new house we are now living in. It was a photo of her in front of house. She was just standing there. It was a picture. A very old one. One of those brown, wrenkly photos. The more I looked at it, the more the photo started to get bigger until it looked like I was IN that memory. I don't remember what happened after, really. I think I woke up.
Also, that year, I had another experience. I was in the bathroom, combing my hair when I closed my eyes for a second because I was so tired. Suddenly, I saw a tall guy at the corner of my hallway, smirking evilly as if he was doing something he wasn't supposed to be doing. He had a really big, pointy nose and his hair was slicked back with gel. He had really long, pointy nails and the lights were flickering on and off. I was horrified. I ran to my room and cried all night.
Now, I'm seeing shadows. Sometimes, I turn around and I see something IN FRONT of me, but it quickly disappears. At the corner of my eyes, it's sometimes blobs of black. They're the same of an animal or human, and it really freaks me out. It's mostly in the living room where this occurs. It sometimes happens in my room. Oh, and also, my sister had seen a black figure when she was trying to sleep at night. The first night she experienced this was at night. She saw a shadow pass by her curtains outside or something like that. The second time, she was putting her baby, Angel to sleep. She turned around, and the black figure was in front of her. And recently, my mother and father heard a noise from outside. It was like a moan of pain. Something like that. My dad got scared, and I know it's serious when he's scared. I've never seen him terrified, so I know that he wasn't kidding. My mom was scared too.
I don't know if what I'm experiencing is reality or just my imagination? Please do tell me what you think. (: Thanks.
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Newbiepsychic makes good points about fear. It always seems hard to figure out how to "make" ourselves not be afraid.
But what occurred to me the other day is that the same Light/Energy/Source that allows you to see and hear these things--is part of you and protects you.
Sometimes I just practice expanding my energy out. I have before felt that there were entities in my private space who shouldn't be there (the words "Uh oh!" were a dead giveaway!) and I felt I blasted them out of my private space with energy. And when someone did my auric reading she said there were white crystalline particles in the aura around. She said she felt it might be a shield of some type. I think she might be right. [I have come to see "sparkles" of crystalline energy as creativity. They are often around pregnant women--and creativity is definitely a part of that process.]
Anyway, long post for short message: Feel your own connection to Source and know that it can protect you from anything. You can only be hurt by your own fears, even in physical. They are tough to totally get a handle on, but it can be the goal.
Isle - Lora