Am I Crazy Or Is This A Gift?

On the note of it being evil, Jesus healed people... I can't see any form of healing being negative.

I remember hearing on a christian broadcasting station of a woman that had such an ability to nuture and help plants to grow that her cactus literally trusted in her enough to surrender its thorns and her other plants grew at an astounding level.
Hang on in there. Your NOT CURSED!

Also I did not adress this in my previous post. You are gifted with a gift, somthing that not everyone is born with. If people classify that as evil, then they should be throwing stones at people with high IQ or even simple eye problems, because not everyone has them. This is coming from a life long christian, you are not evil. Do not fear the gifts that god granted you, for he obviously had some plans for you when he gifted you life.

Have faith my friend, everything tends to work itself out in the end

Best of Luck!

Xancvil

Trust me Murie, you are not crazy. I have had paranormal activity surround me ever since I was knee high to a grasshopper (I am 18 as well). I have had my whole life filled with people saying that I'm either "a fruitcake" or a witch or many of the other things people label others who are not carbon copies of themselves. Heck I even did a stint in an asylum because of what my parents thought of me. I said it at the begining of this paragraph and I will say it again, You. Are. Not. Crazy. Do not let ANYONE say otherwise, you are who you are and that includes any gifts you have.

Now onto the meat of what I was posting here for, you display an apparent affinity for plant matter. Seeing how I lack any legitimate (save your own) experience with this, I can only offer what I do with most other people. That is to follow a sort of "scientific method", and I'm going to skip a few steps because you have obviously have used your gifts.

1) see if you can manifest them in any constant basis. For lack of better example, look at your gift like a gun. If you do not load it, it does not do much of anything. However if you put the clip into it, it has the POTENTIAL to do somthing, and if you load it and pull the trigger, it expells a bullet (the end product). What you need to do is find your clip and trigger, see what makes your gift go off.

2) Practice with it. If you don't know how to aim your gun, (im sorry for the horrible example) it really won't do you a whole lot of good. Now that you have found your clip and trigger, you would need to see if you can replicate the end result, weither that is healing a sick or dead plant, to even influencing its growth.

3) Always have faith in yourself. Even if the whole universe says that you are wrong, but you know you are right, YOU will be in the majority. Self confidance is the first step on any endevor, and I wish you all the best with this. Feel free to email me if you need any more encouragement, or to even compare notes (I am spirtually sensitive, astrally project and could have latent hydokenesis abilites.)

Best of luck!

Xancvil