So here it is... AHEM!
Well, I've always known there wasn't anything ordinary about me. My life swarms with significance but I'm having a serious "psychic's block"--I guess you could call it.
It all started when I was a little girl, maybe around the age 5. I was always an insomniac, always up all hours of the night and I'm still the same way to this day. Anyways, one night I looked out my window. I saw 3 ghosts. Two of them were tossing a hat back and forth and the third one was trying to get it back, it belonged to him. Saying "Awe, come on guys. Just give it back." They wouldn't give it back and the third ghost was very sad. I began to cry and feel sorry for him. I felt like I was him, I felt his sadness and pain. My family and such told I had a very big imagination and never really said much else. I didn't think much of it. I figured it was either a dream or I was so exhausted that I imagined it.
My dad passed away when I was 2. My aunt (dad's sister) recently told me that I told her strange things when I was around the age of 4. I told her, so she said, that my dad would come visit me in the yard at night. And each time I visited my aunt, I updated her on what we talked about.
Now I have bizarre dreams every night and deja vu a handful of times a day. (I had deja vu 3 times during the process of setting up this account. Just saying) And let me just say, I am SO SICK of picking up on other people's energies. Where ever there are crowds, I cannot be. Malls, concerts, traffic, I go ballistic. Its putting a dent in my musical social life.
I just found this website looking for answers on google. I need help understanding these odd things going on. It's starting to control me more than I can control myself. I have many many other experiences and stories to tell about my certain situation, anyone who thinks they can help, Please... Just please. I'd really like to have peace and balance for once.
You are unique in several ways. Most everyone who has the ability to sense the spiritual world only do so in one, maybe two ways. You actually see it, hear it, and feel it. Each of these abilities have their own clinical names, such as clairevoyance, claireaudience, etc.
It is not your imagination. Most everyone is born with some ability, which is lost over time as we pass through childhood. Blame it on our education system, which teaches us to think logically, and most religions frown at persons with these abilities as liars, fraudsters, or even seeds of evil. Society in general is not ready for the change that is coming, and you are part of that change.
As hard as it might be, you need to not only educate yourself by reading about this, but also, you must start to learn how to direct your energies and control your feelings. You can learn to block your "empathy" before stepping out of your house by focusing on your aura and concentrating on not wanting to receive any energies. Every time your aura, which might be quite large, brushes with someone elses you pick up all kinds of information; their feelings, throughts, traumas, and maybe even peek into past, present and future events.
The disks that you see are "orbs." They are the electromagnetic signature generated by spirits who have not moved on to a higher plane. We reside in a three dimensional plane, which does not allow us to sense or feel the spiritual world, or any planes higher than ours. There are several.
The reason you can see some auras. This depends on your concentrtation at the time, and how efficient the aura of the person or object you are looking at is. Everyone has an aura. The aura has several levels in it, and it radiates in the color of the level of spiritual accomplishment of that person. We have many energy disks called shakras, which process the energy that go through the spiritual body. Each of the seven major shakras has a color, which represents a level in the body. The shakras you see without effort are those of people who have open and efficient shakras, and their aura is large and healthy.
With your abilities you can learn to help and heal. Energy healing techniques such as Reiki might be in your destiny, but it is your choosing whether you are willing to become a light worker.
There are some key words in this few paragraphs you can key on to direct your search for more information. You should also contact your spiritual guides and guardian angel for guidance. There are books on how to do this as well. I wish you the best...