Sense Of A Loved One Dying, Before They Has Passed

Twice now, I have had an overwhelming 'spiritual presence' The night before loosing 2 loved ones. The first was my nan, who I was extremely close to. I now realise that she visited me in spirit by an icy cold patch right beside me followed directly by a strong force wind that tore through my home when the weather outside was still as could be. The following day (was Christmas Day) my parents informed me that nan had died earlier today.
The second was literally 3 weeks ago and I am a real strong person, and have lost several loved ones including my mother, however, this is by far, the most difficult thing I have ever had to deal with. So, it was a Friday eve and as usual I sat down with a glass of wine, then nothing else that evening was usual, or normal for me... I literally just slumped to my knees on the floor with the most overwhelming sense of sadness, lostness, emptyness and the sorrow, so much sorrow. I am not a random crier, especially when there's nothing for me to get upset over, but I just cried, and cried. It was a deep dark feeling, which wasn't my own! I contacted my brother on messenger (as we have been spiritually connected to each other before) and one of the messages I had sent him blew me away when I'd read it back the following day. Saying how I didn't want to be here anymore and how my life is s**t and how I've never felt so low etc... It was as if someone else had got into my head and it was their feelings, NOT MINE! So I just rode the evening out with the bottle of wine and went to bed, crying.
The following day I received a phone call from my ex husband which has changed my life forever. He asked me to contact our son as he should be told the unbareable news that one of his elder brothers (& was my stepson) had been found in a park during the night and had committed suicide.
Yes I'm an over thinker. But I know this and many more of my past experiences are not coincidence. I just find it hard to find answers to things that probably we have to accept for what they are... 😢 😢 😢 anyone else who can relate to this I'd like very much to hear from you... Thank you

Hi! I noticed you haven't received any responses. I will try to help. I am an empath and I can sense things from people even through a computer screen. Lately though, my abilities have been diminishing. Many years ago I had a family member whom I loved dearly, pass away suddenly. No one knew she was deadly ill and the doctors kept saying that they couldn't find anything wrong (She hadn't been feeling too well). However, before she actually passed away, I had a dream during which I was standing outside the window of her apartment trying to look inside, but the windows were closed and all I could see was shadows of her furniture. I mean, what really got me was the horrible feelings I felt. It was a combination of deep sadness, loneliness, loss and absence, all rolled into one very, very dark feeling. Now, I have come to decipher that dream as a premonition of her death. But, it wasn't exactly a dream telling me that she would die, but a dream showing me her absence and her departing. Dreams about someone's dying might not always mean the actual death of a person. Besides, your grandma has been ill, so maybe your feelings are just normal worrying/concern? It sounds like something more than that, but I am not sure. Please keep us posted.