Hey,
I've been bullied for almost 9 years. I think that I've always been a little bit different from everyone. Teachers tried to do everything to stop it and my family was supporting me.
I really didn't know why I was bullied and I was angry.
When I got to 9. Grade, I got interested in psychics and psionics, and since then I have believed in them from whole heart.
But really, what was behind everything? It might be that I never understand that. While being at 8. Grade, something happened at school for me, something that wasn't right but that still happened. I felt like my whole world turned around. It everything started from the writing project I wrote and which leaded to more serious problems. I never actually got over it.
At 9. Grade I became pretty quiet and pretty shy (except at home where I have always been safe at) and teachers started to got a little worried because of that. I have never liked to show my emotions, at least not anymore. I've always been pretty sensitive, and I often feel sad when/if I read books or watch movies and if somebody dies. Sometimes I might even flood few tears of that.
I didn't really know what was wrong with me until I went to one forum and I told there that I'm terrible tired at school and I get odd feelings there. I told about my experiences with school and they told that it is a psychological thing. Some told me that it can be vamping, but then one of them answered me that I must be an empath. He told me about his own experience and I noticed that those matched.
I started to look more information from the internet about empaths and I found out that those signs referred to me too.
I understood that all I was experiencing, was feeling what others were thinking about me. Those feelings were pretty much negative, but now when I try to remember how I felt if somebody asked some questions (most of them caused negative feelings). I've always been pretty good at interpreting body language too.
I don't know if this is a real experience, but I just wanted to share this because I need some advice too. I hope that there is somebody who can help me.
One thing to mention: I'm 15 year old, male. Please, don't judge me because of that.
Thanks.
And it's a gift, no matter how much you were bullied this is a part of you. I proudly say that I'm a freak, but it's because I am different. And I'm happy that I am. I'm not like everyone else, and I'm proud of that. I've seen lives get better because of things that I've done, seen peoples lives saved because of people like us. It's hard not to fear something different, but the first step is to accept it, and work with it to get better.
I myself started as an empath, and I know how scary it feels, and how alone you feel. You're not alone, there are many others, and everyone feels this way when they start. There's others all around you staying quiet, but you're not alone. Feel free to E-mail me with any questions you may have, just click my name. And just so you know, the first thing you should work on is controlling the connections you make with other people.