So I notice a lot that I'll have a thought "there's going to be an accident!" And seconds later it happens. Or when I've been really REALLY angry or anxious about something or with someone, "bad" things happen. One person I was this angry with called me up crying at 3 am while I was lying in the bed thinking on how angry I was at him for dumping me. I remember being in Kindergarten- there was this little boy who kept bothering me and I remember thinking "I wish he would GO AWAY" and one Monday we came back to school to learn he had gotten hit by a car and killed. Between then and now there have been dozens more incidents where I was angry at someone for hurting me and BAM! Karma gave them a swift kick in the butt (don't misunderstand- I would never get my jollies from someone dying, no matter how annoying or hurtful they've been to me though). I was worried recently about being confronted by someone at work and lying awake for two nights worrying about it and wishing it would go away- and then come Monday morning, the person was let go before I ever even saw them.
At first I just waved these experiences off as coincidences but my family seems to think that there have been "way too many" of these coincidences. My brother is convinced that my emotions can effect things outside of me and that I have some kind of "power" to affect people and things outside of me. Once I crashed 4 separate computers when I started my first real job out of college and was super-anxious. I have also hear voices that were as audible as if someone were standing right in the room, but there was no one there. And no, the voices didn't tell me to "harm" anyone or myself. It was always something encouraging that I needed to hear RIGHT at that moment, like "you're going to be okay" or "look out!" saving me from a car crash. Psychics have told me my Grandmother is with me, and maybe that is who is speaking to me.
I have had experiences of seeing repeating numbers - waking up at 3:33, 4:44 or 5:55 randomly- buying things that came to $11.11 when I was going through the most emotionally challenging time of my life - I was going through a difficult divorce.
I have also heard a disembodied voice once- I was at a friend's house and we BOTH heard it and knew that whatever it was- it was NOT of this earth. Of course I got frightened, ran home and "saged" myself.
Most recently, when I pray/meditate, strange things have happened- once I actually got lightheaded and needed to faint. I didn't pray for a LONG time after that! I have had experiences where tears began to pour forth, or times where after I prayed, it felt like this electric current or something was running through me- there was something different. I also feel like an emotional sponge- when I go to funerals, I cry hysterically, can't control it, even if I didn't really know the person that well- it's so bad my brother even gets freaked out and tries to comfort me, and he's not the warm and fuzzy type at all. It's like when I sense someone else's pain I instantly can feel it.
So there it all is- I know it sounds psycho but I had to ask what is with me? Is it me? Coincidences? God saving me? Spirit Guides/Angels?
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