Looking For Intelligence

You're not alone with the anger deal... I was originally going to put this up as a story, but either way, I had a very similar issue with this "second personality", which I also compared to a "demon". I'll just copy and paste what I wrote down here since the publishing page for stories wasn't working.
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A little information, first.
I have eyes that change color, and I was drawn to this site because of another story regarding eye color, but I'm not sure I'm a actual psychic... One thing I do know is that I seem to have what I call a "second personality", which I found out about when my adopted father said he was going to take something I own from me as a disciplinary action for not following a direct order.
What happened when this other personality came out really startled me. I'm normally somewhat calm, and I don't like to hurt people I care about. But when my dad was about to go to my bedroom, I pretty much had no control at all over my actions, and all I felt at that time was rage and I couldn't seem to break free of it. What happened was something I thought was not supposed to be possible at all:
I was holding back a man taller than me, stronger than me, and at least 58 pounds heavier than me, with only my right hand, and not only was I holding him back, but I was also pushing him backwards with him trying to push forward. By all logic, I should have fallen backwards, or at least been forced back by my dad, but instead, I was the one pushing him back, and he was using more force than I was. I seriously don't know what actually happened with me that night, but I'm pretty sure I was snarling and that my voice was a lot darker than it should have been... I normally would back down when my dad tells me to do something, but I never would have done that willingly. As for my reaction, the first thing I did was break down because I wasn't able to control myself, and because I was going against not only my own father, but also a police chief who had willingly adopted me into the family when I was only a couple years old. I almost snapped a second time with my roommate in college. Both times, I felt exactly the same way. Raw anger that would likely spell out a damage fee if I couldn't keep it contained long enough to cool off. I managed to avoid letting it all out at once, but I already learned that once I let my control slacken even slightly during the time I'm really angry, I won't be able to reign myself in.

If anyone knows what could have happened, I would appreciate the help.

I can explain more if needed, but the only method I could think of for controlling this strange second personality (for lack of a better word) was to not let myself vent my anger until I'm alone in a room with something that can't be harmed and that can't harm me. I often find myself punching the floor if I'm angry, or I'd be biting my arm (I thought I broke that habit, but I was wrong) or a pillow.

And speaking of biting, I got bit by a dog because it wanted another dog's special diet food and I refused to let it have the food. My almost immediate reaction was "bite the dog's shoulder", and the dog's reaction to that was rather funny... The dog pretty much looked freaked out by my actions, and let go after a few moments. I never fully forgave that dog for biting me, but that particular dog might actually hate me for whatever reason.

Also, not only do I have strange reactions to actual events like with my dad and the dog, but I noticed that when something startles me, I tend to turn slightly aggressive towards whatever startled me even if it was just a sudden loud noise that I wasn't expecting.

I'm not saying I believe I'm a werewolf or Lycan (I see the two as different races or species, where one is a hybrid and the other isn't), or anything like that, but I just know that most people don't bite dogs just because the dog bites them first, and that people don't lose all control of themselves while still retaining their ability to think or anything like that.

For those who are only trying to disprove a real story, you shouldn't even be reading this comment if you don't believe it's possible to any extent. And no, there was no gradual change to alert me like with an adrenaline rush. If it was an adrenaline rush, I wouldn't be posting this story, and I took Anatomy-and-Physiology in the 12th grade, so I know what happens with adrenaline rushes.

You will find your task. Your Vision. This is for sure. Nature makes no waste, and God knows no gaps in memory. Highly perceptive ones are born for a reason and they will be called to their jobs by the Creator. No matter if you succeed in realizing your inborn task - go ahead as soon as you know it, and dare the devil trying to make it real! And do not believe, NEVER, that you are what others think that you are. If you do you just let the world bring you down. Many intelligent ones are SEEN as anti-social or haughty though they are NOT AT ALL. And what is wrong with being a loner if those around you do not grasp even half of what you got on your mind, and/ or do not understand your moral stand-point? I was a loner for intelligence, and for my stand-points, during whole youth; thus my grand-aunt told me, over and over, this sentence:
"WHO HAS GOD AS A FRIEND, IS NEVER LONELY!"
I give it on to you, for your future.

As to the rage: it is a form of energy, of strength. If you manage to get this strength into a constructive "canal", to use it as a fuel for useful work, no matter of which kind, you turn the "demon" into a servant of God.

In case you still are young, I also tell you this: the gift of recognizing who is a liar and who is honest surely will give you success in police or security jobs. In bank or business jobs it is also very useful.

Thank you AnneV for your insight and I have previously examined myself with the same thought in mind. I always figured I could be crazy, my family is the same way with the blind rage and all and you are right about the anti-social, but I have never considered myself superior. I am a reject I can understand how it would have the same effect just in the opposite way. I do believe I am living in my head and it keeps me different from others causing me to stay there out because I feel as though I'm trapped and completely helpless, in a manner of speaking, but I still feel as though there is something missing. A reason, a purpose, acknowledgment? I will not be offended by comments so please feel free to speak your mind. I just feel stuck in a flesh ridden cage of despair.

Hmm, I believe there is something about you that isn't quite human...
I will be able to find out for you. Contact me through my email please.

Everyone's brain is formed a different way and some brains allow for better memory retrieval (or to be better at math, or English, art, etc). On top of that, you're perceptive. That doesn't necessarily make you psychic but it does allow for you to read people well.

They call it "blind rage" for a reason. Rage can and does block reason, memory and cause other distortions in our experiences. Rage ruins lives all of the time. Hopefully you, in all of your intelligence and insight, learn where it's coming from and how to cope with it. Memory black outs are not good for obvious reasons.

Intelligent people commonly get trapped in their head and often become anti-social because they feel superior to those around them. Then they realize they are just different but not better. It takes years to come to that realization and I'm not saying that's you but living in your head is a symptom.

Thanks for sharing.
Anne