I Am Desperate To Know Who, Or What I Am

By maireilis
(1 stories) (0 posts) (the author is a young adult)
Date: 2010-08-30
Country: United States
State: Oregon
Category: Telepathy / Empath

Ever since I was a child, I have been different. I can't remember a time that I felt normal. I see good and evil beings as easily as I see the sun, I can read people's emotions and true selves, and have had dreams that show the future in sometimes terrifying detail. I can read a person and their true thoughts, but I often get caught up in their mind and emotions. I connect easily with the supernatural I see around me, but I'm not sure what part of it to trust. I feel that something out there is for me, but I don't know what. I don't know what I am. And if I am out there, with what I see, what else is out there?

I have been distant from humans for years because of this, and I am desperate for something or someone to give me the answers I need. I'm tired of skirting around myths, folklore, and the snickerings of ignorant people of the "modern" world. I want to know the truth. I know that I am ready for it. I am not crazy, I know this. I am 22 years old and I need direction. Is there anyone out there who can help me? Is there anyone else out there that is like me or even close to being like me? I am desperate to know who, or what I am. Please, if you actually know something, respond. I don't want propaganda or people who babel off what they have been spoon fed, just truth. For anyone out there, thank you in advance for reading this, and I hope you are willing to help me.

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The following comments are submitted by users of this site and are not official positions by psychic-experiences.com. Please read our guidelines and the previous posts before posting. The author, maireilis, has the following expectation about your feedback: I will participate in the discussion and I need help with what I have experienced.

Steven-GhostWatcher (11 posts)

14 years ago (2011-05-14)

I would like to let you know that I got your message that you had sent to me and I have responded, although I have not heard back from you again.

brainboy (14 posts)

14 years ago (2010-12-30)

actually I am almost exactly like you but I am still young and it has gotten wierder and weirder in the past 2 months

AnandaHya (guest)

14 years ago (2010-12-18)

they probably are playing games with you. Questing for yourself is fine but sometimes learn the off switch. We go to sleep to regenerate our earthly body. Turning off your pyshic viewing to rest your physic one. There's lots of methods and some work for others, me I just go to sleep or ask one of the angels to tell everything else to buzz off. I see those things. They don't bother me, I don't tell most people about. Most people think I'm down to earth and sane, until I do something that is not quite normal. But by that they normally love me and don't scoff because I'm rather protective of my loved ones and tend not to do anything without a reason and out of love. Otherwise I just act normal by not saying out loud the things I see, sometimes other people just don't need to know. If you know someone is terrified of snakes and se one in the woods but it isn't bothering anyone, should you tell the other person about the snake or just direct them on a different path? Most people don't want to know about the spirit world, and a lot delude themselves or talk to the wrong crowd.

Me I watch it warily and make sure there are no snakes on my path and avoid them unless forced to kill them because they wish to attack or eat me and mine. Just email me if you want to talk more. I've got two little toddlers so don't ck this blog much.

Steven-GhostWatcher (11 posts)

14 years ago (2010-12-18)

I cannot tell you straight out who you are. But, I can help you find out. Trust me, I know how. And I want to tell you how. Please contact me: s_breniser [at] yahoo.com

nemothehero (1 posts)

14 years ago (2010-10-28)

Well in all honesty I am truly glad that I found your story.
It is nice to know I am not alone, thank you

bnaur (10 posts)

14 years ago (2010-09-04)

Simply put, you are a spiritual being having a physical experience. You have a gift to see the material world as it really is, a manifestation of the unseen spiritual world. An atom is 99.9% nothing as the electron spins in and out of existence. Meditate and enjoy this gift that will always prove you are more than flesh, you are spirit.

TableTennis (5 posts)

14 years ago (2010-09-03)

It all begins with acceptance.
Accept everything and internalize it.
Then, you will understand.

ravenv5 (1 stories) (63 posts)

14 years ago (2010-09-03)

One key thing to know yourself is to declare war in all your demons and make them submit at your will. That means knowing yourself and your limits.

Having that and accepting who you are will surely unveil the curtain of who you really are.

I would say that you and I are parallel that could see and read other's thoughts and true feelings.

For me when my mother lie at me it hurts most.

Before having gift like this made me to curse myself and thought that I am under a curse but when I accepted it in later part of my teen years I am so happy.

Another thing is as a psi-vampire it is easy for me to feel and see the face of mundanes. Life of mine sucks because hour for an hour I craved to feed on nature or humans but through that I could even feel others.

I hope you'll see the light within you.

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"Learn from thy elders about the paths but when time comes for you to find your path it will be own your own."

Blessed Be
Raven

Adaryn7 (6 stories) (460 posts)

14 years ago (2010-08-31)

I agree with PathR.

Maireilis, everybody is psychic. To different degrees, yes, but the fact remains, whether we choose to dismiss it as "coincidence" or accept the truth of what we are. We are so much more than flesh and bone.

If you can see things in the spirit, then you are clairvoyant ("clear-viewing").

If you can feel the emotions of others than you are an empath, and strong one at that: it sounds as though you may be able to do soul reading as well.

If you can hear the thoughts of others, then you are telepathic.

If you have dreams that come true, these are called "precognitive dreams"--meaning that you have the gift of precognition.

I would take up meditation, learn shielding and develop the chakras. Also, try to get in contact with your Guides--they will help you to find your purpose. PathR and Oracle101 can help you with this more than I can.

Hope this helps, and God bless
Adaryn7

PathR (4 stories) (1274 posts)

14 years ago (2010-08-31)

maireilis (3rd eye seight) spirits,entities, energies. There is an exchange in energy which can leave one feeling tired even if you assess by viewing and sensing these. Part of this occures because we are energy beings and some of the core part of us is used in this participation.

The confusion with diciphering a reading: all are not completely honest, even to themself. Some people operate from intuition and they normally have a few halo's same color above the head if this aligned with their guides. People from emotions you can cord 2nd chakra. Mentally you can sense around the body and will get mental images when they have thought forms, sometimes there can be a misty block around them. The sad part of reading and understanding people is seeing them creating their own dilema's.
As far your person gift I have found meditation and being able to align my own light can surface like a canope.

Please be aware as you become skillful you may become melancoly and have to guard against this.

taffyinky (4 stories) (108 posts)

14 years ago (2010-08-30)

Your at least on empath (feel others emotions), have premonitions (see the future), and telepathic (hear peoples thoughts). Many people have these gifts, you just need to know where to look. I, myself, have premonitions as well but I am not empathic or telepathic.

lindajean (5 stories) (109 posts)

14 years ago (2010-08-30)

Both of your stories are very interesting.
I think people could benefit with your knoweledge. Since it is hard for you to be in the mainstream public, maybe you could write of your experiences.

Looking for answers when few people possess what you do is like looking for a needle in a haystack. I think you could find your own answers within yourself. Contact your "Guide" and ask why you have the "gift's" that you have.

I think we all possess some degree of psychic ability.
Your level of psychic ability seems very high. I would learn to control it and use it to better the people here. ❤

Amethystquartz (1 stories) (3 posts)

14 years ago (2010-08-30)

I have always been different than most peoples out there. I have tried to be like others and failed. I am for the most part a recluse. I say it like this, I don't do people, well. Which is the truth. I don't. I feel like I can understand things that others see as nuts or don't exist and I see it as normal. Like things like spirits or things in alien in nature, I think not only is it normal for me but I feel like I'm at home and for the most, at peace. Growing up I can see things and hear things that others didn't and it got stronger with hormone I guess.
Lately though It seems that they too are playing games with me. I too need answers.

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