I have been able to do automatic writing for quite a while now and I know I can communicate with the deceased, but don't know how to interpret what they are trying to tell me. Is there anyone who can guide me and help me develop my abilities? I went to a spiritual class about 9 years ago and had my brother-in-law channel through me. I didn't have any control over what was happening and it scared me so much that I haven't wanted to do anything else since.
I know when someone is trying to come to me because I get a buzzing sensation in the palm of my hands. This also happens when I do healing on someone, I know I am not controlling where my hands go. I have been told that I have an ability and that I will use this to help people. I just need someone to help me understand what I need to do and how to do it.
If there is anyone in or around my area who can help me, please let me know. I have also had visions of spirits and had them touch me when I know they are there and it scares me that my heart starts pumping so fast. I have been told not to be scared of them but it is hard when you don't know how to communicate with them.
I would love to do what John Edwards does, he is just amazing and helps so many people.