I would hugely appreciate some thoughts on my recent experiences and perhaps I will be able to understand it a bit better with your help or you can give me some advice.
I will first explain last night's experience which has opened my mind to the psychic abilities I think I may possess. I was having a few drinks with a new friend, she had told me about her brother who died a few years ago because of a bike accident. He was in his early 20s and it was her older brother. She described to me about a time she had sensed that he was on the end of her bed. I was telling her that I felt quite a spiritual person and I had occasionally had feelings as to be telling if there is a presence in a room and how I had used a Ouija board one time.
At this point I began to sink slightly in my chair and I became aware of the room almost like stretching, she was primarily in my focus and around her my vision was slightly blurred. I was unsure as to what was quite going on but I told her that he was there, because I could sense him being near my right shoulder. I didn't see him or hear him but I told her to speak to him. She was saying how angry she was about his accident and saying how much she needed him and missed him. At the same time I felt almost as in a trance and I remained very stil in this sort of odd feel to the room, this is when I felt him take my arm and just move it very slowly and softly and I took this as him to let me know that he was actually there.
There was then a small bang from upstairs (like a door being closed - there were other people in the house so I'm not suggesting that this was necessarily made by him) and immediately after the noise the room came back into focus and I sat up again, he was no longer there.
Now we had had quite a few drinks so we were drunk but I am not the type of person to toy with someone's emotions about what must be a very hard thing for her. I had only just met this girl this week and I had never had such a strong connection with another force. For me, because I had had a drink I was more relaxed when I felt the contact and open to allowing the contact to take place. We both took it as a positive event but I am hoping that I did not just imagine what had happened. And I know myself that I didn't just imagine it but it was just so odd and it sounds odd describing it.
I have always had the sense of being able to feel when a room is inhabited by another force, it doesn't happen very often and I think I was more in touch with this when I was a child. It is not something I look for and I tend to ignore my instincts to pursue the feeling perhaps through fear of the unknown. This is very hard to explain but I used to hear noise within silence, like static. As if I was hearing a different sound frequency to what other people can't hear, when I would tune into this frequency by allowing myself to listen to it closer, I would sometimes get some very strange images within my head, be it objects like a porch or a jacket or a horizon. I would also get sometimes very scared or very emotional from the sound of the frequency, as if there was someone shouting or crying, etc. For a long time I had to play music for me to get to sleep as I could not sit in silence as it would sometimes become too intense.
I think I have been contacted within my sleep before and I would sometimes get a word said in my ear that would wake me. This is all very vague for me to describe because it is always something I have set aside and not wanted to think about.
Last year I done a Ouija board with some friends and I received a fitting message from my grandfather who had died when I was 5. He was the last person I was expecting to be contacted from and since then I have been more open to the ability to contact spirits. I have also been intrigued more by the aforementioned things that I was able to do when I was a child, things I've always ignored and not tried to make sense of.
In fact this post is the first time I've ever actually described these things in detail and even writing about them I can't seem to describe it properly.
With what happened last night I have taken it as a very positive thing and that maybe I should look into psychic abilities and I would very much like to hear some views, advice and suggestions about the whole thing.
Thanks,
Stewart
Definitely keep an open mind about this type of stuff!