Going all the way back to kindergarten, I have always been told I was gifted. I felt the pain, suffering, and emotions of others. Sometimes I can take theirs away by few calming words or embrace. I am the friend that everyone comes to for advice. I also read tarot with amazing accuracy. As a child I would have dreams that days later would come to life. Getting older I think I blocked so many of my gifts and struggled with all of it. Fear mainly controlled my actions. I am now learning how to meditate and feel when I want to feel.
However recently, I have made a bond or connection with someone I do not know in person. I believe that it's possible we met in a past life. I am not sure if this helps the psychic ability I seem to share with him. He is the strongest person to date (amongst the living) that I can feel. I am currently on a base in Japan and he is in Canada somewhere. I can feel when he's nervous, I have felt when he's gotten injured. I have also felt him have sexual acts with his wife. That has changed everything for me.
Him and I have spoken about most of this and talked about the possible twin flame things. But I think from my side it's more empathy and I am not sure? How do I feel him from this far with never meeting? I feel like I have known him forever. I am struggling to learn more about my everyday abilities psychically but I feel he makes me stronger.
I have also encountered many ghostly type things in my life so I am feeling a bit lost and concerned. There are so many things I can add to this but it would take days to read. I do believe I am an empath but would like to know more about my other abilities. I see colors when my eyes are closed and I focus on particular people. I can feel certain peoples feelings. I have a keen sense of smell, I can smell things that most can't for a while. I have been able to tell when my mother is sick because I get the ailments. I feel sometimes like I am going crazy because I have all these feelings at once but none of them are mine?
I hope to help others and in return get any advice you can offer. I would like to be able to use my abilities to help people as well as grow on a personal level. Thanks for reading.
Mojojojo- Funny thing is I feel that him and I are - but something happened the other day and I think we are both pulling away. I am pushing his feelings off bc I feel like he doesn't want me around right now. I think I will post another story to explain it. It's been one of the hardest things to deal with and I am having such a hard time with it.