Push A Bit Harder Maybe?

I remember that ever since I was a young boy, that I had a sense of being able to do SOMETHING unusual with my mind. As a disclaimer right now, at the beginning I must tell you that I never have done any extraordinary psychic feat. I just have this innate curiosity (as I'm sure you do seeing as you're reading this), that I may have been endowed with some sort of ability. I can control my mind to reach this feeling of immense energy, pushing up from the base of my neck to the crown of my skull, it's just like pushing with my brain.

I keep thinking that there has to be SOME method to my madness, some reason for my obsession with this feeling. Recently it has got me thinking that I may really in all reality have some unforeseen ability yet to be uncovered. I want to remind you that I have felt this nagging curiosity since I was young. I try to focus on material objects out of hope of moving them, that I have telekinesis, but to no avail. I'm of above average intelligence, which in itself is hard to say with modesty, so I understand a wide range of psychological techniques to manipulate and influence people. I am good at reading body language and all that, but this pushing feeling feels strongest when I am around another. Almost like if I could push JUST a little bit harder I could pry into the static electric storm that is a brain of an individual, their cognition of reality. Could I trick their minds into seeing other realities? Or read their minds? Or maybe control them entirely? If I could push harder could I?

I wrote this in an effort to find answers. Is it delusions of grandeur, spurred by my own skewed sense of reality? Or is it real, this sense that I have some hidden 6th sense of sorts, which just simply needs to be harnessed? On this site I hope to find another person who understands this feeling, this action and understands how to further my abilities, if any. Thank you for taking the time to read my heart, poured onto a page.