Where Do I Fit Into This Pyschic World Part 2

I always thought I was special because of my interest for phenomenal things to happen. When I was about 3-4 years old, I'd have this dream repeatedly of flashing lights and this noise I couldn't bear. I would wake up screaming! For some reason these dreams really scared me! Maybe it was from a movie?

As I grew, I began having what I call "de ja vu". I would go into my next class and as the kids were randomly finding their seats, I began noticing that something was the same, like I had seen this happen before! I looked down the row to the left of me and that is when it was clear to me that I had definitely seen this before! But where? Where do these come from? Did I dream them and then the next day they happen? Are these premonitions?

I remember sitting at the kitchen table, concentrating so hard and for so long. I gently held the pencils eraser top. Then slowly trying to take my finger off to make it stand on its own. I did it. I had the pencil standing on its own! No support and no the sharp side of the pencil was not sitting in a hole or groove in the table. It stood like that for 10-15 seconds then, falling after my cousin came into the kitchen, breaking my silence and focus.

When I was about 12, I began researching witchcraft (thinking) "This is magic!" I then tried spells and in my mind at that age I was doing it. I even tried my own experiments with the Urban Legends. For Example: Indian Spirit. When friends and I tried that, we felt a cold presence. When we tried (and I will not say the name, let alone type it) BM, you know the legends? You go into the bathroom look in the mirror, she will show herself to you and your worst fear. My mom told me about this one! She said when she tried it she seen BM herself hanging from a tree in the mirror. I've had friends try it and literally got locked in the bathroom. I had to experience it for myself! I went into the pitch black bathroom and looked into the mirror, chanted her name and what I saw scared the living day lights out of me! I began to see my face in the mirror. As it appeared, the image in the mirror showed my face getting wrinkled like I was old! Some Legends I thought were true but most of them didn't work out.

What do you think of these Urban Legends? Does the mind really project an image so others around you can see as well? That's my husband's response to it all. "There's always a logical or scientific explanation!"

At the time of my experimenting, I had feelings of a presence. It seemed like every place I have lived at was haunted. I had heard voices, screams, and have seen some unexplainable things. Even though at that time I really never seen a spirit or ghost, I just had the feeling of a presence.

I still had the weird dreams only at this point in age they were different. In 8th grade I was in a writing class. On the first day when we were labeling our various notebooks, the teacher instructed that we make this special notebook. It was very important that we had this notebook everyday, even though we wouldn't be using it most of the time. She wanted us to bring it everyday and then a day in the future she would request for it. Whoever didn't bring it would get a write up. Most of the school year, I went to class prepared everyday. Then I stopped taking it to class. I had a dream one night, it was just the notebook staring me in the face with a red background! The next day when I went to class, the teacher asked for the notebook! I did not have mine! I felt as if I did go with my instinct then I would have been prepared. Is that what my conscious was trying to tell me; to bring my notebook that next day? And why does it warn me?

Now I am 24, almost 25 years old and I just had my 4th child exactly 2 months ago today! Finally, it's a girl! About a month or two before I had her, I developed really bad migraines and I actually had a vision while I was awake! I have never felt anything as this intense OR had visions before period!

I was walking through the living room with bags of groceries, when it happened! It made me stop right in my tracks! The vision was of me boarding up both of the living room windows! I was even wearing the same clothes in my vision that I had on that day.

There was another vision when I was in the boy's room cleaning, only this time I was boarding up their windows! What does this mean? I just moved to Florida so it will be my first hurricane season experience! Does that have anything to do with these visions? I don't even know how these visions started!?

Another new ability I have experienced is mind reading and telepathy! I hear my husband's thoughts. Just as if he were whispering them to me.

Then just a few days ago I had a bad feeling come over me and I felt like someone in my family was talking bad about me. What does this mean? What abilities do I have? I am so confused, maybe if I knew what I had then I could learn more about it and experiment more!

Thanks for reading!