Senses Of Spirits And The Future - Can You Feel Them?

When I was barely 5, I felt the presence of spirits around me. I was often too frightened to find out about who- or what- was watching me, so over those next few years I had learned to ignore them, and almost forgot them. But at the same time, spirits weren't the only things I had felt. Strange and unusual emotions that I couldn't explain gave me feelings of what would happen in the near future. They started out simple, such as being able to predict the outcome of playing a board game. But as I got to around 9 years old, I was able to sense if I was in danger. And on new year's eve, I got a very strong feeling that turned out to be the suicide of a man who went to my church.

My life has always been far from perfect. Someone was always hurting me- whether it was someone from my school, or my family. I got to a point where I was in a suicidal state because of the pain I had been dealing with. But, since I could usually sense danger, I knew exactly what I had to do- avoid it, if I could manage to. I figure skate, so sometimes I can sense when I'll fall, and I can feel the pain in the exact spot that I fall on, before I actually do. In addition to that, I can feel both the emotional and physical pain of my friends.

In 2005, my step grandma and her 100 year old mother were killed by a drunk driver. I had only seen my step grandma twice or so, because she lived very far away. The second I found out she died, the spirits I had been trying to forget bounced back to me. She was one of them now. No matter what I thought of, I felt them listening, watching, and wanting to communicate with me. I'd spent the nights following her death screaming out in terror in the middle of the night, yelling at the spirits that I wanted them to leave me alone. So they did, but just long enough for me to readjust, before they decided to fully present themselves to me.

I don't really remember how I began communicating with them, but whenever I feel them wanting to talk to me, or scarier, when I hear them calling my name, I can relax enough (usually through meditation, which I learned in previous years) to talk to them. Though I never communicated to my relatives, I have communicated to many of my friends' relatives. Oh, and I did see my first pet hamster (the only animal spirit I saw).

You could probably tell from my writing that I'm 13. Both my brother and I have had many experiences, as well as my mother, who can see the future in dreams. I rarely get visions in dreams, but sometimes I do, both of spirits and the future. If you have any advice to offer, it's much appreciated.