I guess I should start from the beginning. Since I can remember I've always felt as if I was never like other normal people. For starters, I can't remember a lot of my childhood; however I do remember my first experience seeing something before it happened. I was about 12 and someone shot my dog in the leg. We took him to the vet and they said they were able to save him and he would be just fine. Three nights after we brought him home, I had a dream where my dog (his name was Prince) was running away from me into a light and I stopped chasing him. I woke up crying saying Goodbye Prince. I went and told my parents about the dream and that Prince was dead. They dismissed it as a bad dream, until that morning when we found him dead under the patio.
My great aunt passed when I was 17. That same day, I could not stop thinking about her. When my mom showed up at my school, I told her I already knew.
Last November I lost control of my car and totaled it. While the car was spinning, I felt as if I left my body and my great aunt who had passed almost 3 years ago came to me, looking young and surrounded in a white light and told me to wake up and go back. When the car stopped spinning I went back to my body, regained control of my car and pulled over. My car had damage all over it, except the driver's side. There was not a single scratch.
More recently during the time my mom was still alive, I had a dream of her holding a baby boy. I thought this meant she would survive her battle with cancer and live to see her grandchildren; however, that was not the case. The night that she passed she came into my dream, which was rather sexual and said, I'm sorry to interrupt you while you're busy; I just came to say that I love you and goodbye. The night after she passed she came back and talked to me while I was in a half-asleep state.
It was after her passing that I found out my sister was pregnant; however, she lost the baby, which is what I believe my dream when my mother was still alive meant. The weird thing is for the past three weeks she has shown up in almost all of my dreams, talking to me in a language I've never heard, yet somehow I'm able to understand everything she is saying. She keeps telling me truths about myself, my family, and about how they, "the dead", learn everything (whatever that is) when they die, but that she can't tell me anything that doesn't relate to the family.
More recently I have begun to see things that I can only describe as demons as I begin to approach sleep, which frightens me so greatly that I wake up gasping for air. The only place in my mother's house that I don't see these demons as I go to sleep is in her old bedroom. I don't know if this means I'm psychic, maybe I'm just really sensitive to these sorts of things. I didn't want to tell you guys about all of these dreams or visions I've had since I was younger, because that would be too long of a read, but I just wanted to give everyone an idea of my experiences.
My question is about the last part. Is it just a manifestation of my own mind, or has anyone else seen demons? If you have seen them how do you get them to leave you alone?
I had to read your story again, and after doing so I am now sure that these are your own personal "demons" (if that's what you want to call them) I would explain them as yor own trapped feelings of anguish, pain and I sense guilt but I don't know for what (and I don't need to know!) These negative emotions scar your very being and can present themselves as the energies you think you are seeing, and as the fear you experience approaching sleep.
I came to some conclusions on your mum and dad, but it seems rather impersonal to post them on here! So I'll shut up!
Suffice to say that you can heal yourself from these "demons", although if there is a Reiki practitioner nearby I would reccommend seeing him/her as they will deal with it more thoroughly. However, you need to start to meditate and in time you will be able to focus explicitly on the sacral chakr and the heart.
Here (sacral) release all negative emotions, guilt, fear, animosity and unhealed rifts/arguments. At the heart chakra, open it wide and recieve and give only the pure love.
Even if you don't get "the lurve" back from who you really want you will feel released by no longer burdoning these "demons"!
Well, it makes sense to me!
Luv Lin x
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