Emphath About Physical Attraction

Well, I had a co-worker that I was obsessed with one time. She was amazing! She was beautiful, and had a smile that would light up the world! I didn't ever talk to her. I was shy! We would see eachother every day at work. She would sit right near my table in the lunchroom. I would sometimes see her around the building, but we would be very close to eachother. In a department at my job, she would be a lane over from me. I would be sent to a department, and she would be in that department working, too. I would go to the restroom, and she would be heading there, too, or coming back from the restroom. STRANGE occurances, indeed! If I walked into a particular part of the building, she would be there! It kept happening over and over. I don't know why. All I could do is write out a long story about my fantasy. I never got to converse with her, unfortunately, yet whenever we saw eachother, we would stare at eachother. I was thinking it was some sort of spiritual road block that was preventing us from being together. The proximity of our working environment was incredible, and the building is over 400, 000 square feet! I feel that I was either being tormented by a demon, or prevented from being with her by God. God doesn't like adultry, of course. She was married, but not happily married. I didn't have to have sex with her, or be her secret lover. I would have loved to just be her good friend. I was smitten, in love, super infatuated. I was really blown away by her beauty, and by her walk, and by her voice, and her smile, and her incredible charisma! Unfortunately, she quit the job in 2004. I don't know how to explain things, but I am glad that the mindrape of that situation ended! It was really bringing me down.

I have had a few situations where I've been infatuted with a certain female, thinking I was in love, but didn't even know the first thing about her. Perhaps it is some sort of spiritual road block that prevents us from hooking up with someone. Perhaps it's just not someone meant for us, even though there are tons of signs that the person is.

Well, I guess it's just good, in whatever way, to know how people are going to be around each other. It's helpful. I would say, "thank-you..." Gratitude seems nice to me. People sense and know in there own way, so find yours. Life here is important. That's about all I've gotten in the past many years, except that we aren't alone.