How It Started!

How strange. I'd never think I'd be rushing to the internet about this.

I guess you could say it all started when I was about 8, I had to be rushed to the hospital for a sudden change in temperature and a really bad headache. I was seeing things that "weren't there" like I had told my mom I had seen blood on my tissue and she rushed to the bathroom and literally scavenged through the bin and didn't see any blood.

Then right after is where I just suddenly got a major headache and my body felt like it was very cold but I remember my mom and aunt, who was also there at the time, saying I was burning. On the drive there all I could see was the full moon from out of the car's window.

I was shaking and I just kept holding onto my head, I'm only saying this part because this is where things started getting weird in my life, I guess you could say.

I began to feel weird around people, like this sudden chill or like a drop in my stomach around strangers or even family members! I'd tell my mom everything and a year later I had got my period and I didn't think about it then but it really connects, then I would see colors around people such as black, people with black make me feel suspicious or scared of them, while the color yellow would make me more open or happy to be around this person even if they where a stranger!

I'd told my mom about it and she'd always just tell me that it was just a feeling of intuition. But they're so much more things like once I'd paused, I didn't know I'd paused, but my mom told me to "snap out of my little trance" while my brother was running foolishly around our coffee table I blinked and sudden like clip of him on the floor holding his leg crying flashed before me and I felt like I had deja vu. I screamed at him and my mom to make him stop and said that he'd hit his knee but he continued and then he hit his knee and laid on the floor just like how I envisioned!

I'm not the type to deny when something is wrong, so I want to know what is wrong with me! Am I even physic? I sound crazy! I'm currently 14 and I'm still trying to figure out why I am I like this. I still have those strong deja vu feelings and I still see colors too.

There is so much more to tell but I won't overdo it.

Someone please educate me I'd be eternally grateful!

(my deepest apologies if this is a bit jumbled! It's quite hard to explain without sounding or feeling crazy...)