Ever since I was a little girl I've always known I was different. Nothing made sense to me and I thought I was alone. I'm still young, only 16, but now I almost kind of understand who I am. I'm an Indigo Child. But I'm losing so much of my psychic abilities with every day that passes. I'm sure it's because I can't stop being scared. I've always been afraid of the dark. Afraid someone's watching me, afraid someone is behind me.
I can see auras and I'm extremely sensitive, but mostly to sound. When something is too loud, like a plane overhead, or a train, or a motorcycle, or even the toilet flushing, I freak out. I am also sensitive to nature. The down fall is that every time I go outside I feel drained of all my energy and I feel like sleeping. Also about a year ago my step dad and his son were cutting down a small tree in the yard. I couldn't bare it. As strange as it sounds I felt the other plants pain as they watched their neighbor get torn from the safety of the soil.
I used to think that being an Indigo is amazing and it made me feel so special, but now I feel lonely, lonelier than I felt before I knew. I believe it's taking more from me than it's giving back. I prey that someone can reassure me. Because this is my destiny, and nothing can change it...