Hearing Yourself In Your Own Home?

I need help. I have been suffering from depression and sadness. Then the next day I feel good and happy. I feel drained on bad days and energetic on good. On bad days it is as if I can't shack it. It is as if I and being drained. I try to have positive thoughts, but only hear bad. I just can't shake it.

Then today I feel like I am going nuts. I feel/hear my mind, like it is bouncing off the wall, and I can't excepted it. Then I went outside. And at that very moment it went quite. I could no longer hear myself or the sounds. And it was calm. It was as if the world removed the negative junk immediately from my mind.

I have heard voice of the dead before. I used to work for a nursing home where I recall not wanting to go down a certain wing of the home. I saw black shadows and the voice I keep hearing keep saying, "I've got to get out of here!". I only heard it I that one spot.

But I don't know if what is going on now is a ghost, a demon, or just me picking up my own energy. Is it a spirit or is it me? I am very good at physical object reading... But people/ghost confuse me. How can you tell the difference?

Also how do you stop it. Obviously going outside put a stop to it. I hate the color white, and concentrating on a white light just annoys me. And it's really hard when I am under attack.

So far I have been inside now for two hours and I am not feeling/hearing it.

I don't know much on what to do and no one I know, knows that I am this way. I would prefer to keep it that way since my husband thinks it's all "crap".

Any suggestions? I have started to wear rose quartz and I have my beads (which help the most).