I Knew That Was Going To Happen

I've said that many times over the years and even told people I really didn't consider myself psychic. I recently heard the term psychic knower and started to wonder. After reading about it, I'm still not sure. Through the years, I've had many instances of deja vu and dreams that felt extremely real of myself in a different life. But recently I've come to realize that sometimes I do just know things. My mother used to tell a story about me as a child that I vaguely recall personally because I was so young. Our family went camping and had to leave behind a semi melted candy bar in the refrigerator at home. I woke them all up during the night crying about the fact that I saw a guy stealing it and it was gone. Upon getting home, we discovered our home had been burglarized and in fact our candy bars were gone. As an adult, I had times where I would imagine something happening to someone I knew, only to have it actually occur. At times I almost felt guilty as if I was to blame for it. Not always was it bad, though. One instance is a guy who'd been a client of mine since he was 11 years old. I watched him grow up and date several girls but no one suited to him. I also had a niece in a bad relationship with her high school beau. For whatever reason, I saw them together and I just knew they were perfect for each other. Of course I told them both and over the next few years, I tried really hard to get them to hear me. Both of them blew it off and they never met. I decided to get over it. The relationship finally ended for my niece, thankfully, and she began to heal and move on. One day, my client came in and said, "I'm ready to meet your niece. As I'd already said, I was over it so I gave him her number and let it go. He contacted her, they married a year later and have a beautiful 6 year old son now. They will attest to the fact that I just knew. Recently, I lost my best friend and sister after a long illness. We were very close and my brother-in-law and I were as well. Immediately after her passing, I began to just get this feeling about someone close to our family possibly trying to be with him although there was no reason for it besides me just knowing. This person was my nieces mother. She had been married to my brother and later, married my sister's first husband. I wrote it off but joked about it to my husband and mother. Six weeks passed and one day I received a call from my brother-in-law who needed to talk to me. He went on to explain that he'd reconnected with someone from his past and that he was afraid I'd hear about it and be upset. He then said that I knew her. I said her name and he was speechless. He was shocked that I'd figured it out that fast. Later, my niece came to me and wanted to explain that it had happened after my sis passed and they were so happy together and I told her I just knew it. She said,"Yes, he'd told her that." I went on to try to explain how sometimes I just get a feeling and she laughed. She said, "I know, it's like the feeling you had about me and my husband." That's when I realized that other people saw that in me and it wasn't all in my own imaginations. During my twenties, I became pregnant with my first child. I just knew it was a girl and I'd known her name since I was little. Imagine my surprise when when it was a boy. I adjusted and looked forward to being his mommy. Unfortunately, I lost him when I went into labor due to a medical problem and I was devastated. For the next year my grief was so deep and endless that I thought I'd never get over it. I was encouraged by doctors to try again and it was a success. I ended up with my only child, a daughter with the name I'd always known. I came to realize that things happened exactly the way they were meant to happen to help my spirit learn, grow, and become stronger. I have been blessed with a wonderful husband, a bit rough around the edges, but with a giving heart. Many times over the years hes helped people in different ways and I have always supported him with that. There have been a couple of times where I didn't feel good about it and I would tell him what I expected to happen or how it might turn around on him only to have him tell me later how dead on I was. Is this intuition, imagination, or something else? So even with all those years and times of just knowing things, there are so many things that I just don't know. What is this thing I have? Who or what am I? This, I just don't know.