Trying To Control

I've had precognition, clairvoyance, Aura reading, etc. Since I was a child.

But lately it's been getting stronger.

I mistakenly started practicing what I automatically did when I was a kid, sitting there, meditating, (but not really for long because I cannot sit still)

And then I would see something. As little of a few moments would pass and it would happen.

This one time when I was about 3, I called my grandmother on the cell phone and told her to watch out for the hole in the road and not to lose her papers. Seconds later I heard a thunk and her license plate fell off the car after hitting a speed bump. She told me she had to go, and ended the call. Afterwards, she climbed out with her papers, and dropped them in a puddle by accident.

Another time (this was recently) I was laying in bed, and I couldn't sleep. I my senses were off the charts and it was horrifying. I looked around, thinking that someone was there, until a black shadow walked into my room. The shadow would not leave, just stood by my bed. A few moments passed, and I realized that it was one of my relatives who had recently died I did not speak, as I felt bad for forgetting that this spirit was always called by my mother (another medium) to watch over me.

When I fell asleep, I had a vision that my guinea pig got stuck in her hiding house, and I woke up to a squeal. I checked on her and low behold, her haunches were stuck in the door.

Sometimes these lead me to mental breakdowns as I see things that scare me badly. I need a mentor/book/free course to help handle my abilities. If you can reference me to anything that would greatly help:)