My Experience With The Spirit World

When I was little (around 7) I used to be deathly afraid of my house. I couldn't be in any room alone. I always had major anxiety. I used to have melt downs where I would cry and scream and kick up until I was about 12. My mom threatened to take me to a therapist. It made me think I was crazy. I always knew there where spirits around me. I don't know how I knew, I just knew. But I felt like I couldn't talk about it. I thought that if I talked about the spirits they would get mad and hurt me, so one day I made my mom walk with me 2 streets away just to tell her that I was afraid there was ghost in our house. She told me it was my imagination and that I was just thinking about things too much. As time went on I still had anxiety but I just tried to ignore it. When I walk out of doorways (especially my bathroom door), I see lights shoot downwards from each side of the door frame and they just go to the ground. I still see them. But like I said, I just ignored them. Now I'm 15. I still feel the anxiety, it gets really bad sometimes, almost to the point where I want to throw up. I still see the lights shoot down from the door way, I can still feel spirits when they are around me, but there is one particular experience that if like to share that had lead me into believing that I have some sort of connection with the spirit world. I've been dating my boyfriend for about 4 months now. We live In Texas by the way so it's normal for guys to carry pocket knifes. Anyways he came over and he showed me his pocket knife. He said that his grandpa gave it to him. That's all he ever said about his grandpa, I knew nothing about him, I didn't even know if he was still alive or not. Well that night I felt watched. I could feel a male presents with me. I started looking around and I found the pocket knife under the blanket on my bed, assuming that it had fell out of my boyfriends pocket while he was over. The next day he came over and I told him that he left his pocket knife and I gave it to him. I could still feel the male presents so I had ask him "Is your grandpa dead?" He said yes. A couple of minutes later I asked him "was your grandpa in like the army or the marines?" And he said "yeah he was actually in the Vietnam war" I said "did your grandpa like to duck hunt?" He said "umm yes!?" He started to get weirded out on how I knew all this stuff. He asked me how tall he was and I said maybe a little over 6ft and he said yeah he was 6'2. And then he asked me about how much did he weigh and I said I'm not sure but I feel like he was a little skinnier than your dad. And at that point he was amazed because I got all of that right. I thought it was so weird. I don't know how I knew that stuff, I just knew. I always am staring off. It's like I'm trying to figure out what a spirit is telling me but I can't seem to do it. I want help. I can feel when they are here but I want to learn how to listen to them and channel them better and learn what's going on with me. Am I crazy or do I have some kind medium/psychic gift? Please help