Reiki, Dreams And Meditating

Yes and no.

When I was younger, I felt like I had a star burning in my chest. I always had energy.

When I was a freshman in high school, I lost it. My first girlfriend cheated on me, then, when I decided to forgive her, she broke up with me.

Being highly empathic, I was stuck in a feedback loop, and all the wisdom and knowledge I had access to, in essence, destroyed me.

However, what I gained from all of that is a better ability to articulate what I was not able to evencome close to describing before that point in my life.

My mother believes I would see things when I was younger. I don't remember.

I've always had voices... I would put them in three "levels".
Thought- level voices, where it seems all my telepathic experiences have happened. This is also how I hear most spirits. For example, I would be working in a grocery store, holding a item that I have no clue where it goes, and a thought-level voice that seems seperate from my own thought processes will say "look left, down two spots, over three spots."

Then there is a inbetween phase. I don't hear it with my physical ear, but it feels as if the voice is outside of my head. I've heard these when coming out of sleep, and coming into awake. Sometimes, when I have time, I can raise and lower my conciousness and these voices will gainand lose strength accordingly.

Then there are voices and noises I've heard with my phsyical ear. These don't happen often.

Beyond that, I feel more than anything else.
One of the most fortunate spirits forme to come across was one that only talked tome for three days.
Had me red random verses in the bible, made me sleep on it, then got me up and had me read a few more, then would ask me what I thought it meant, and would point out anything I missed.

That spirit made a point of telling me that it would not be hanging around long, and made a point of telling me that, after the study sessions, itwould be best for me to assume that anything else that spoke to me was lying to me.

I was also very fortunate to come across another knowledgable person online that taught me what she called the basics... Then simply listened to me for a time.

And, most of all, I would say God plays the largest part of who I am, an what I know.

I don't really see much... I get little patches of visions here and there.

But many times it's like I'm stuck in the middle of a giant spider web. When one person takes a action, I don't just feel the energy from that, but I feel the energy from the lines touching the action, if that makes sense.

I won't say I can accurately see or read the future, or even to possess accurate abilities to perceive anything from a distance.

But it's as if I understand 60% of the world without even really wanting to.

I've had a few chances to study with people in person... Towards the early end of my life, it wasn't the right time... And now that I have managed to balance my emotions, there simply is no one around.

It's funny, I really would give it up to have a meaningful relationship with a person I can spend the rest of my life with.

Sometimes I think I will end up losing the attachment I have, since I only really use meditation to balance, not enhance.

In any case, yes, I have always had about 80% of the knowledge I currently have, or, at least, that how it feels to me.

MrE, thank you very much for your response! You were definitely right about about being worn out from Reiki. Once the 21 day reiki attument cleanse was completed, I started remembering my dreams again.

I did notice that the twitching in my meditations did stop however I still have been getting a jolt here and there. But that could also be caused by what you mentioned about 'curses'.

Thanks again & you're very knowledgeable regarding this. You are very in tune, have you always been this way?

Maybe you've worn yourself out a little bit with all the reiki training.

I don't know much about your hands feeling hot, but personally, I always run warm. I am jokingly called "lukewarm man" by some friends beside whatever side of the car I am on will fog up first.

In the same respect, I've always had a level of energy running through me. I sustain myself with it... It often seems like I would be far less physically capable if it weren't for me using energy as a crutch to maintain my body.

As far as I understand about reiki training, you are taught to focus energy towards your hands to use it for healing purposes, right?
I will admit, I could be off base, I know little of reiki, but a decent amoount about energy.
If what I said is the case, it's as simple as your hands getting accustomed to being the channel for the energy.

I have experienced twitching and jolts in meditation. Many times, from exhaustion.
A few times, towards when I started, from outside influences.
A few times, also towards when I started, from internal influences.
Unwanted emotions, when you are meditating and cleansing, can manifest energeticly into a jolt or a twitch... It's your body's way of burning it off in the form of energy.
In those cases, it's not much to worry about. If you gotta twitch, twitch it out.
It's part of the reason that physical exercise helps keep you healthy.
In regards to the outside influences... There are spiritual parasites that feed off many different energies, and they do what they can do encourage those energies continue to be produced.
Sometimes it's in regards to things like "curses" that start loosing foothold when I cleanse or balance my emotions, so the energy is trying to find another avenue to take hold.
Sometimes it's... Well, have you ever heard the expression "staring daggers"?
People, wether they know it, or not, when they have strong negative thoughts and feelings towards a person, throw "psychic weapons" at those people, wether they realize it or not.
Those do get lodged in pretty good at times, and they do build up if you don't take care of grooming them out.

I also have other meditations where I remove abudance of anxiety out of my solar plexis. The visualization for it is something like black, sticky goo. Sometimes the anxiety gets so bad I can feel a phsyical pull on my diaphram when I do the meditation and pull it out.

However, I think most of it, with you, is that you are tired from all your reiki training.

As far as your 2nd dream goes... I will say this. Angelic beings have taken flesh before, for whatever reason.
Sometimes, they take flesh, and purposefully forget about their knowledge as a angelic being.

Wether these angelic beings are servants of God... Who knows. There is no real way to find out 100% for sure.

Havng said that, I don't think that dream was about your friend.
I think that dream could more be defined as you meeting one of the angels that whispers in your ear.
That's just the face he/she wore for the dream (angels are spirits. Male/female really doesn't apply)

On a side note... Interesting thing about unicorns...
Copy and pasted from http://carm.org/bible-unicorn, so all copyright and whatnot goes to that website.

In 1611, when the King James Version was produced, the translators used the word "unicorn" to translate a single Hebrew word, reym, because they didn't know what the original Hebrew word meant. It is the English that critics complain about, not the original Hebrew text.
Unicorn - described as an animal of great ferocity and strength (Num. 23:22), R.V., "wild ox," marg., "ox-antelope;" 24:8; Isa. 34:7, R.V., "wild oxen"), and untamable (Job 39:9). It was in reality a two-horned animal; but the exact reference of the word so rendered (reem) is doubtful. Some have supposed it to be the buffalo; others, the white antelope, called by the Arabs rim. Most probably, however, the word denotes the Bos primigenius ("primitive ox"), which is now extinct all over the world. This was the auerochs of the Germans, and the urus described by Caesar (Gal. Bel., vi.28) as inhabiting the Hercynian forest. The word thus rendered has been found in an Assyrian inscription written over the wild ox or bison, which some also suppose to be the animal intended