A brief background of my history/family/experience;
My grandmother was a clairvoyant and read tarot, she is deceased however my father has told me many stories and passed her tarot cards down to me. I used to practice tarot when I was younger and also became extremely fascinated with paganism. Until now I haven't really thought about this stuff and this is the reason why...
Recently I have stopped smoking marijuana - clean for 5 weeks now, night terrors are not applicible as these don't last for longer than 2 weeks with withdrawal according to my physician (please no judgements, I had a traumatic time and it helped a lot) since then I have been able to feel when something bad is about to happen like I used to be able to and my dreams have been quite lucid and I am becoming more aware of things whilst awake.
This is my main issue... I smelt the scent of my grandfather the other day whilst I was in my bedroom - he is deceased, following this at 2.28am I woke from my sleep hearing a very loud noise coming from the room next to mine, which was my grandfathers before he passed, I also saw a 'bulb' of light float past me about a metre away from me 2 days ago and last night I am uncertain of whether I was awake or in a lucid dream but I felt a large breath of air on me, as if something went through me almost? Which made me scared as hell! I'm unsure whether this is a possible spirit or energy or it could possibly be my grandfather or i'm just a little bit mad maybe?
I am almost convinced my house contains spirits, when I was younger apparently I used to tell my father I was speaking to somebody at night and I remember a scary experience when I was younger, when I awoke with something pulling my sheets off my bed and as if something was lightly walking towards me ontop my bed... (I shared a bedroom with my brother - he was asleep, I screamed and my grandfather and father ran into the room, nobody else was in the house and it was down to me 'dreaming' But it felt 100% real and I remember it clear as day.
From what I have researched recently I feel there may be a possibility of me being an empath as well, I can usually read peoples auras and a lot of people confide their problems with me yet I feel overwhelmed afterwards as if i've sucked away their bad energy, given them my good. Yet some times when I am around somebody which doesn't voice their problem/s to me, I can just vibe off whatever energy they are giving off, ie, if theyre upset I feel upset, extremely happy I feel on top of the world.
I have open views of all aspects so please indulge me with your thoughts and opinions whether you think I'm looking into this too much or it could be a possibility? Thank you
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