Not Sure Who I Am Or What My Gift Is

Since I was young I have had dreams that have come true. I have also experienced moments of deja vu, in which I have learned from an early age how to control the out come of those moments. I learned that when I'm in a moment of deja vu if I focus on that moment and don't want the outcome I simply mention it like "Wow holy deja vu", and if I want that moment to play out I simply just won't say a word. BUT, as I've got older I have started to realize that there is more to my gift. I'm just not sure what it is! I hear mumbles and when I hear them I will see someone with a light above their head. Usually it's a stranger but once it was a friend. I feel as though the mumbles are messages but I can't understand them. Only twice was I able to understand and I could relay what was said. The first was a stranger and when I told him he "freaked out" but, every word I said to him he said was absolutely coming from a recently lost friend. The other was a good friend and she broke down when I was able to write down what her friend wanted me to say. Both of these moments happened during the full moon. I see a lot of light around people and also hear the mumbles, but I'm just not sure how to embrace them! Just wish I could understand my gift and be able to use it. So any kind of suggestions would be a huge help! I am finding it increasing hard to function through a normal day with the mumbles and the lights that I'm seeing. I want nothing more than to embrace my gift, but I just really need to understand it and know how to use it to be able to let people know if a loved one has something to tell them. Thanks Suzanne