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***I hope this doesn't disturb anyone if it does I apologize in advance and if you're sensitive in some way please don't read.

Hello, well I was trying to post this on the haunting or ghost stories webpage but it said it was closed due to a lot of teenagers posting fake stories and the like on it. Another thing I should probably point out is that english is not my first language so I will try to explain what I'm experiencing as best I can. I just hope someone gets to read this and maybe help me in some way?

Well I've been living in this house for about 6 and a half years now. I used to be ok and I didn't even really experience anything wrong for a while. Until about 3 years ago. I ended up going into a sort of trance like state and did something terrible to myself, at that moment when that happened, I felt like something took a hold of me. I'm unsure how to explain it I have been called crazy too many times already, but I really felt a presence beside me, literally like talking to me. From then on I've been through really hard depression for a long time, and neither medication not psychologists have helped with this. I kept telling my mother about how I feel like something's not right with me but my family just keep telling me I'm crazy or whatever, even though I'm certainly not hallucinating and the doctor knows there's nothing really wrong with me, and has told me so, I've even gone through brain tests and they said everything was fine. My mom's friends say that the house next door has a very heavy feeling to it, and I'm thinking if this could be affecting me in some way. There was also a person that died there, and there seems to be constant fights between the people living there all the time.

I've had moments where I've seen lights going on and off around my house. One time I was sitting downstairs and I was doing homework, when I heard a strange noise. I went to check on it, and at first I thought it was an insect of some sort, but when couldn't find it I went back to my chair, but kept staring at the ground. I kept hearing the noise and when I looked up I clearly saw how a nightstand was turning on and off like trying to turn on the light. So my first thought after seeing that was that there was some sort of short circuit, but that's when I remembered I had left that light there because it wasn't working anymore and furthermore it was unplugged, with the cable around the base. So I thought there's no way this can happen? I kept thinking about static electricity in some way influencing that, I made the big mistake of telling my relatives about it though, and now they laugh at me and insist that I'm crazy, though I'm sure of what I saw.

I am scared of being alone in the house. One day after being extremely angry at my parents, I came to my room, and I lied down on bed, I lost consciousness and I actually thought I was dead, I was so out of it I could not move my body, that's when I felt like there was something in the room with me, and I remember the first thing I thought, since I couldn't stand up and I was like in a trance was, "whatever you are even if you're a demon I don't care just help me to move", I felt extremely cold and I closed my eyes and in my mind I saw the image of a woman crying with her eyelashes full of dried tears (dunno how to translate this), she seemed like she'd cried for so long she couldn't open her eyes very well any more. So I opened my eyes and I felt like whatever was in the room with me was offering it's hand putting it close to mine, and that's when I finally got to move my hand. When I did I sort of regained consciousness, but my mouth and tongue came out and I couldn't close it, I was having what I suppose were like seizures. But I was finally able to move up from bed. I could barely breathe and I started having close to convulsions and was trying really hard not to lose consciousness again.

When I got to the hospital though, they said it was nothing, they did blood tests on me and then refrained from treating me because I was taking antidepressants, though the psychiatrist said that this reaction was not normal and also, since I've taken pills like these before, these are extremely mild. What's funny though I guess is that, if this had been brought about by that I'd probably still be going through it, or furthermore I'd have kept feeling like that at the hospital, and I didn't. After about 10 minute from arriving there, I started to feel better, but I kept shaking for about 2 days after that, which could have been the trauma or not I don't know.

The thing is, after the incident 3 years ago, I was fine for about one whole year, though during this year, I experienced a lot of unusual things. For example when I was downstairs in the living room I'd hear a bird flying near me, like there was a bird flying around the room or something flapping it's wings. I'd also hear upstairs things like a crackling sound? I don't know if that's the correct translation for that. Or like when you move your tongue to make a sort of horse like sound.

About a month ago, when I came upstairs late at night I heard like something had literally smashed like an open hand into one of my windows, it was very quiet, and it was pretty late round 2 am. Thing is though, this window is like in a cube and if you look through it you can see another window in my house, and this is 3 floors up, so it's not like a person would be walking around pretty much inside a 4x4 meter square on the third floor of a house.

A few weeks after this, I went to the washroom in the middle of the night and when I was washing my hands I started feeling extremely scared for no reason, I felt like something was looking me through the window. So I decided to go back to bed and when I closed the curtain to the shower where the window is, I heard a very creepy sound, I can't remember what it sounded like to tell the truth cause it was late, and it was a while back. But when I came out of the washroom and was trying to fall asleep again, I heard again like a hand against the other window in my room, but going up and down the window pane.

One time about half a year ago I heard footsteps over my roof around 3 am and like I said we are 3 floors up, there's also no workers around here either. I woke up my sister and I remember she got really scared too cause she'd obviously never heard it before, but I've heard it a few times already.

I don't know who to turn to or who to ask for help any more, I've talked about my experiences with other people and most of them just laugh at me or say I'm crazy. My family just thinks I'm crazy and my mother keeps pushing me to get medication or psychological help even though it hasn't helped me at all, and they keep telling me to just take medication, even though I've gotten brain scans and they turned out perfectly normal even stating explicitly that I don't have any problem, and I'm not suffering from any mental disease, because my brain is perfectly fine. But all of this doesn't take out the feeling that something is wrong, or all the things that I keep experiencing.

I am just tired of it, and would like to see if anyone could help me at all.