My Connection

This is a step of courage, and I am seeking feedback of any sort.

Since breaking my ankle a year ago, the work I've done on myself includes Jin Shin, Reiki, lots of meditation and a few guided energy medicine Cd's by Andrew Weil, ect. As in taking classes and getting trained to put to use my ability to feel and transfer energy. A step towards my purpose here. There is a new respect for myself and I'm aware of my potential and the greater happening in this universe. Also I have felt energies since childhood, this is nothing new for me.

It all started, I say "it" cause I'm not sure how to relate to this experience yet. It started when a friend broke his knee, immediately I knew which knee it was and I amped myself up to work on him. So full of compassion and understanding of how hard crutches are, I was very open hearted. I started "smoothing out his field" Feeling where I'm allowed and not allowed. I was pushed from his knee, to his heart and solar plexus. In my mind with my hands sending out each thought, I ran through my practice *compassion *innate harmony *healing presence * unconditioned unconditional love. What I have learned these words to mean as the healing work on myself has done through my cleanse.

So there I am with my hands over his heart and solar plexus, in the peaceful quiet state. I have no idea how long I was there, and the sounds in the background were gone. It was beautiful for me! I received my first telepathic message! Not startling, just woke me up and I knew it was time to move on to his knee. His voice in my head said "I love you."

The next few day I could not stop thinking about this experience. Goggled it like crazy, but most of all I could not stop thinking about it. To the point of talking to someone and thinking something else. The strangest knowing of 2 minds at the same time. Like it never stops.

Now it gets odd. Feeling like an obsession I googled it more, and came to the conclusion some door had been opened and I needed to shut it. The test was focus on a door with his name and close it, not to think about him and he will show up in person if it's a true connection. Sure enough every day I closed the door, here he was. By the way, this is my husband's friend I'm talking about.

Just exhausting, literally exhausting to shut the door. So when I laid down one night I let my mind wander. In the simplest terms possible this was my first out of body experience and there we were, together! This indescribable feeling. No words were said, just understanding. This happened a few times. These meetings, are not dreams I'm not sleeping cause when we say bye, there I am back in my bed. The feelings still lingering, the physical feelings.

The meeting was like watching a movie. I had no control over, no rooms, just white light, just this unbelievably awesome place. I remember at one point we sat in a chair position knee to knees and forehead to forehead for a long time, with this buzzing on my forehead that I felt very clearly. I was always aware that we knew each other, that's it's ok to be there. Well when these "meetings" stopped it was a very amazing experience that I cannot let go. Us sitting Indian-style floating upward in this upside down tornado of energy. Our head joined and crown beaming of light that was so strong it sucked us up. This is how the visits ended, and I cannot get back there anymore either.

I asked him if he was going through anything, not sure if he was aware. That I feel a connection to him and I'm not sure why, if there was anything he wanted to talk about. Which isn't unusual. He says all he knows is he can't stop thinking about me. The closing of doors was mentioned and he gave that a try, with no luck. He was aware of something just not the vision I was given. He knew it was going on for a while also. When I did a Jin Shin flow on him after this experience I was on fire. The most intense hotness my face was burning, my hands where burning him as well. Almost to the point of needing to stop which was interesting also.

Now I have these super intense knowings about him. As in I feel him around when he isn't and I know he is sad, or hurting, or stressed out. Him being a non believer in spiritual matters that he is, It's pretty uncomfortable for me. Do I tell him what I sense? Or better yet how can I just get rid of this connection? Not that it's all bad, but I am not sure I like knowing his personal information.

To make it even crazier, I ended up calling my mother and talking for a while, she starts telling me this story which is identical to mine! Mind taken over/ guided to vision places/ the exact same formation position and describable environment as what I went thru. Ascending upwards in energy filled light with the Third Eye matched. Even with a man she didn't even know well. I know things happen for a reason and I know others experience this.

Any advice. And also I did open up to another and got judged harshly so be it known. I am a completely sober person, I eat VERY healthy. And work on myself a lot!

I would appreciate any replies. I understand we are all connected and is a gift to feel this connection