I do apologize if this sounds a bit crazy but I googled certain keywords to my situation and it has brought me to this site.
A little bit about my personality, I consider myself a good person, I always want to help people, I always put others before me. I'm very positive and try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt and there's rarely any negativity in me. I'm not trying to show that off its just part of who I am and I feel this detail is important to my story.
Currently, I'm 25 years old. I've realized I'm an Empath about a few years ago when I was explaining to people that I know how people feel and how people feel around me. A few friends explained that it's being an Empath. Really cool, I didn't think anything of it.
My abilities have been becoming stronger lately. A few months ago I met someone like me and this person sensed that I was the same as they were, which is something beyond an Empath. According to them, I have a different energy only seen in children. If they focus on me my energy is like a sunburst. While I was hanging with this person they showed me some of their abilities where if they go near a dim light it turns on, and its simple lights like a street lamp and things of that nature. A few weeks after I saw that I was walking to my building and I noticed that I've been doing the same. I walked near some dim lights and they flickered on really bright. It's been happening more and more frequently and stronger as time has passed. Maybe they always happened and I never noticed.
Anyway, my empath abilities and that has been going on and my friend has been very vague. It seems they know what I am but they want me to figure it out on my own, which I respect. I don't think I'm an actual Empath but I definitely have Empathic abilities and now I realized the light power, I think it's called electrokenisis or something. I'm sure I might have more I haven't discovered yet or even realized it's an ability.
The thing is a month or so ago I've been having these bad nightmares I can't remember. I figured out that it was a Poltergiest attacking me. I was told by the same friend, which by the way I really trust and very close to, that they normally attack people who are discovering who they are to prevent it.
So I cleansed my apartment with White Sage. The problem is the last two months I've lost my abilities. My empath abilities are still somewhat there but even my friend says that vie been losing whatever abilities I had and whatever they sensed in me is kind of gone.
Also ever since then I lost much of my focus, not just in my abilities but focus in school work, focus in my friendships, focus on
To jump around a bit I have another close friend, let's call them friend # 2 but with friend # 2 I sensed that THEY themselves are like me. Also had different abilities but the same thing happened and when their poltergeist left them alone their other abilities besides their empath abilities were gone as well.
I can't lie I kind of like knowing that I have abilities because I feel I can help others.
A few weeks ago I THINK I dream walked into someone else's dream and when I asked them they confirmed that its possible since it makes sense.
Also over the last few months I've been having this crazy thought that maybe I may be connected to Angels in some way. Maybe I may be one, maybe I am connected in some way or maybe I'm something else that is totally different.
More about friend # 2, I have a deep connection with this friend. One connection I've never had before. I know when they're sad, I know when they're happy I know when they're hurt. Many times our feelings are in synchronization. When I'm stressed, they're stressed out, when I'm sad they're sad. Sometimes we even have the same exact dreams.
Both friend # 1, who has more experience, and friend # 2 who has less tell me they feel like they've known me in a past life. Friend # 1 is convinced that I might be an old soul, that this isn't my first time here.
Also one other small detail related to this, I went to this New Age Store, and I bought some stones to give to friend one, I bought something for myself, which is Angel Aura Quartz. Part of it because I keep having a feeling I might be connected to angels and may need it, another part because it actually was pretty and reminded me of the Fortress of Solitude Crystals from Superman. Every time I wear them the colors differ from Purple to Green. Not sure if it's the way the crystal is but I feel that detail is needed.
I also feel like something big is coming, then again I get that feeling every so often as well. I feel like I'm needed somewhere and don't know where it is, I feel like someone needs my help and I don't know who.
I want to able to focus more, I want to know who I am, I want to be able to have a better control of my abilities and even discover my other ones. Such as seeing energy. I know it's possible but ever since that poltergeist attacked me I feel like some memory and part of me has been erased and I can't figure out what it was.
I do apologize if I sound crazy but I am looking for help, I am looking for answers and guidance.
Thank you in Advance.