Absorbing, Seeing, And Becoming One With Energy?

I think I can feel and absorb energy from anything really, most of the time I just feel it without warning and it's very powerful. Sometimes I go sit down and soon I'll feel a sort of magnetic energy holding me in place, I can move slowly but when I do it feels like two opposite magnets rubbing together. I can focus this energy anywhere, which will often cause a lot of pressure. When I'm around a lot of people I can't close my eyes and stand still, even with my feet grounded sturdily, the energy always makes me sway and lose balance.

I often create balls of energy in my hands, and if I put my fingers right up to an object and visual the strips of energy absorbing into me I'll feel the energy going up my fingers. When I do this my fingers will begin to feel like the object, even though I'm not touching it. Like if I absorbing the energy from bread my fingers will feel spongy and soft like bread, and sometimes if it's strong enough I can make that feeling spread so I begin to feel as though I have become that object - I'm not strong enough to make myself completely feel like this, but somewhat. Also, when I do this I can smell the object. Even if it's metal, suddenly I will smell cold metal as though it was lined on the inside of my nose - it's that strong too.

I can also see energy at times, or I think I can. I zone out and see colors emanating from things and people, or sometimes I'll just see random shapes and figures of almost invisible light - if that makes sense. Or if I'm trying to absorb energy from the earth with my eyes closed then everything will turn green instead of black, or the wind and everything will be silver, etc.

Sometimes feeling all this energy can be kind of scary as being in a room full of people can exhaust me and make me feel dizzy or light headed. Or I'll be sitting in my room and can't stop getting stuck in "energy waves" and it can make me feel like it's the beginning of a panic attack or something, even though it's not. The energy will make my body feel like I'm high or something, in a weird way not a feel good way. When I meditate the energy in my body is so strong it kind of worries me.

What is this? Am I absorbing energies? What can I do with this energy?

Thanks